Maunderings
Dreams and fancies. Ruminations. Pontifications. Redundancies.
All good words. What am I going to think today? No one knows. Not even me. At least, until I think it. I need more artistic expression in my life. Whether it be writing, drawing, painting, composing music, or whatever, I want it... nay, I need it. What is stopping me? Life and all its distractions. Or in other words, me. I am stopping me. Happens all the time.
I want to be involved in the exploration of the psychic world, or whatever name is fashionable at the time. I want to find and expose myself to paranormal situations. I know I say this as if I haven't done it before. I have, many times. I just want to keep myself in the loop. I don't want it to be self-indulgence, however. Notice I didn't say self-delusion? Although they are similar in this case... I make the distinction. Self-indulgence in this case would be presuming certain capabilities in yourself, and allowing the nugget of possibility be the scapegoat or the reason for much more than is reasonable. For example, if I assume I have some strong effect on people near me, I may begin to blame myself for things they do and say that has nothing to do with me. Self-delusion would be further into convincing yourself of something that isn't true. The two terms overlap, I agree.
I have digressed slightly. I just want to witness and explore phenomena that I can continue to form my own opinions about.
I want to go to Dragon*Con. This may become less likely as I am running out of time to make room arrangements. My previous room plans have disappeared - somewhat due to my own lack of clarity. I seem to remember that someone from the Vaxer group was going... I don't remember his livejournal name, but his real name begins with J. I don't want to say the name, to protect the not-so-innocent. He's a north-florida kind of person.
All good words. What am I going to think today? No one knows. Not even me. At least, until I think it. I need more artistic expression in my life. Whether it be writing, drawing, painting, composing music, or whatever, I want it... nay, I need it. What is stopping me? Life and all its distractions. Or in other words, me. I am stopping me. Happens all the time.
I want to be involved in the exploration of the psychic world, or whatever name is fashionable at the time. I want to find and expose myself to paranormal situations. I know I say this as if I haven't done it before. I have, many times. I just want to keep myself in the loop. I don't want it to be self-indulgence, however. Notice I didn't say self-delusion? Although they are similar in this case... I make the distinction. Self-indulgence in this case would be presuming certain capabilities in yourself, and allowing the nugget of possibility be the scapegoat or the reason for much more than is reasonable. For example, if I assume I have some strong effect on people near me, I may begin to blame myself for things they do and say that has nothing to do with me. Self-delusion would be further into convincing yourself of something that isn't true. The two terms overlap, I agree.
I have digressed slightly. I just want to witness and explore phenomena that I can continue to form my own opinions about.
I want to go to Dragon*Con. This may become less likely as I am running out of time to make room arrangements. My previous room plans have disappeared - somewhat due to my own lack of clarity. I seem to remember that someone from the Vaxer group was going... I don't remember his livejournal name, but his real name begins with J. I don't want to say the name, to protect the not-so-innocent. He's a north-florida kind of person.