How to dissappear
i recently listened to the song "How to disappear completely" on Radiohead's album Kid A.
i feel like this is my song. my life's opening and ending sequence. i've strived to stay invisible. even when the light would chase me with it's wooden spoon, I would ALWAYS plan a new disappearing act. Yorke's voice echoing "I'm not here..."
Who hasn't dreamt (at least once) about how people would feel if you disappeared? this is my daily escape. A bus. Cancer. An airplane landing on my car. Thom's haunting voice echoing "...this isn't happening."
Don't get me wrong I'm not anxious about these things happening, I just play these things out in my mind...like a 2nd grade play without consequences or remorse even if i botch my lines.
For me, I've been out of sight for most of my life. Letting the world look over me. Just doing enough to fit in. Just doing enough not to stand out.
I remember in my sunday school days - a scripture - "let your light shine before all men..."
I wasn't born with this light. I have the power of invisiblity. The power to not matter enough. The power to matter just enough.
with that said...until next time...
i feel like this is my song. my life's opening and ending sequence. i've strived to stay invisible. even when the light would chase me with it's wooden spoon, I would ALWAYS plan a new disappearing act. Yorke's voice echoing "I'm not here..."
Who hasn't dreamt (at least once) about how people would feel if you disappeared? this is my daily escape. A bus. Cancer. An airplane landing on my car. Thom's haunting voice echoing "...this isn't happening."
Don't get me wrong I'm not anxious about these things happening, I just play these things out in my mind...like a 2nd grade play without consequences or remorse even if i botch my lines.
For me, I've been out of sight for most of my life. Letting the world look over me. Just doing enough to fit in. Just doing enough not to stand out.
I remember in my sunday school days - a scripture - "let your light shine before all men..."
I wasn't born with this light. I have the power of invisiblity. The power to not matter enough. The power to matter just enough.
with that said...until next time...