Busy and apathetic and missing my baby girl...
and there's no rhyme or reason for the changing of the seasons
sometimes the winter lasts for months sometimes it lasts for days
the world is an amazing place there's gaping holes in outer space
The weather here is so mild that I go for walks to clear my head for awhile. I could be doing much more productive things, instead I walk and think and dwell on how a few thousand miles away my niece is sleeping and I can't be with her.
open up your eyes and see the beauty over there
open up our ears and be surprised by what you hear
'cause it's not just on the radio, it's not just on the video
it isn't all downloadable, there's music everywhere
While I wouldn't exactly call it apathy, I've just grown to accept and shrug and take all the bullshit without making it personal. At work. At school. From my friends. It's really not worth it to let yourself get so worked up over things and people that don't really matter in the real scheme of your life. I keep muttering that in three months I will probably never see these people again, and it makes me smile.
and the fact that they divide us should be enough to unite us
we are the world so boys and girls let's all collaborate
'cause when we play together we won't notice the bad weather
like flashlight tag when it's real cold or kickball in the rain
I'm nervous about how Super Tuesday will pan out. I'm not overly political, but I just don't think Hillary is right for the job. I'd almost vote Republican than for her. Or maybe I'll write in for Al Gore. Which reminds me I need to update my status in NY so I legally live here as my residence. It's about time, I suppose. Filing taxes this year like a big girl, all alone.
it doesn't matter what you look like, doesn't matter what you sound like
doesn't matter if they like you, just remember to be kind
and tell someone you miss them, tell someone you need them
tell someone you wish you could be with them all the time
Just remember to be kind. I remember day in and day out that being kind is the most important thing.. Biding my time until I see the people I love again. Josiah is insanely busy and we've found it hard to connect lately and I miss him in my life. If it wasn't for this being my final semester I would have taken time off from school or transferred to stay home for Lainey. I never thought I could be so in love and devoted to one little being, but I am. It's brought my sister and I so much closer together, and she is my world. It makes me realize how much I want to have children, how much I ache for that bond and miracle in my life. I think I'm going home this summer to take care of her, I can afford to take one summer off, can't I?
sounds silly but it's not a game, making music makes me sane
i sing away my pain and everything turns out okay
and i'm not talking fame and glory, 'cause that's a different story
this story is about how truth and love can save the day
Life is too short to take it seriously. No one gets out of this thing alive, so lets live it up while we're here. I try to live by this while still doing the important things like work and pay bills and pass my classes. Just biding time until Vegas in March. Worst scenario: No jobs, but still seeing my Lainey. Best scenario: Get offered all three jobs and still get to spend summer with Lainey.