so here's your hoiday, HOPE YOU ENJOY IT THIS TIME
Right now I just feel so unbelievably sad. It’s like impossible. And im not even feeling sad about myself. Well somewhat I guess, but I feel sad for my friends. For people who I love so much, people who have always been there for me, and loved me when no one else was there. Now, I don’t even know what to say to them. I just listen and cry with them. Cry for them. It’s really horrible how the people you love the most, seem to hurt the most, and you just sit there wishing you could stop it, protect them from everything. But I suppose you can’t protect someone from everything.
I just wish I could make them feel better, like they’ve made me feel better so many times. Even if I was upset about something so stupid, they always made me feel better. Made me laugh when I had cried for hours straight. I think back over everything, the funny things we did, the stupid things we did, the fights we did, and the hard things we did. I mean, you do things for your friends, not because you have to, because you want to. i mean, these are people who listen to you when nothing you say makes sense, and understand when you just make noises or say nothing at all. these are people who stay on the phone with you until 3am because you can't fall asleep for one reason or another. these are people you depend on to live through each and every day, good or bad you count on the fact that they will always be there for you. it's a whole bunch or great, wonderful things you get for almost nothing. it's absolutely amazing. and i don't know how some peopel don't see that. i don't understand how some people can just throw all that away for nothing. literally nothing. i don't get it. i don't udnerstand how the most important people in your life can have such little influence over your actions. other people dictate your actions somewhat, you do some things for other people, and for other people you DON'T so some things. but you know, it all comes down to how much your friends mean to you. that shows what kind of person you are. and i suppose that's what's important.
i <3 my friends. i don't know what i would do without you guys. ever.
Everyones having some kind of problem this week. It’s not good.
I <3 you guys. SOO SO MUCH. <3 collz, alan, bang, jared, megan, jen, allison, ly, anyone else you guys know.
ha ha hot!
allaan - from last week but whatever
taylaaa
bang and me. havin some problems.
