Lions, tigers, and Lauren Zizes, oh my!
I watch too much tv, this is my announcement for the day. TOO MUCH.
Still, what fantastic tv to watch!
I just started watch the new British show Bedlam and I find it instantly addictive (not just because Jed runs around topless often and it's nice). It's actually a pretty good show, nice intelligent suspence rather than cheap thrills. I'm almost desperate to write a Being Human/Bedlam crossover, so maybe tonight I do that.
I marathoned Justified last week because I cannot resist Timothy Olymphant in any medium. (Yes, he is also one of the reasons I'm planning on seeing "I Am Number Four".) (Dianna and Alex are two more reasons.) I'm hardcore Team Ava, though honestly I'd ship her with Boyd as well as Raylan. The show itself is fantastic, very...deliberate. It has a steady pace of fantastic drama, the relationships between the characters are complex and deep...I don't know, I just really adore it.
In real life...I find myself in a bit of a dilemma. I have a friend at work who I've grown closer to in the past month, since she broke up with her tool boyfriend (he cheated...alot...and she found out). She kinda needed someone and we'd been casual friends, and somehow I became her rock. The problem is that I get tired of people so quickly, I'm rigidly anti-social to a fault. I'm not tired of her or anything, I'm just wary of...hurting her feelings? I do that often, unintentionally, and I try not to...but it often involves me having to lie. Small lies to get out of doing things with people, because I don't have the patience to dredge up enough restraint to not be a bitch.
The thing is I try really hard not to hold things against people when the things they've done are things I would do myself. Stubborn-ness? I do it, so I forgive it. Rudeness? I do it, so I forgive it.
However, I caught her in a small lie. Something so tiny and non-hurtful it's ridiculous, but it's suddenly making me think. If she lies about that, what else is she lying about? It makes me think about the stuff I lie about and wonder if she does such a large scale fake persona as well. I do the things I do to make my life easier, so that the men I work with will stop hitting on me, and that the people I'm friendly to give me the distance I crave without feeling sleighted. My friend, though, is not that type of person. She does things to start trouble, not avoid it. I've always known this, which means I take her with a grain of salt most of the time.
I feel unfair, I guess. Can I hold it against her, even subconsciously, something I do myself?
Still, what fantastic tv to watch!
I just started watch the new British show Bedlam and I find it instantly addictive (not just because Jed runs around topless often and it's nice). It's actually a pretty good show, nice intelligent suspence rather than cheap thrills. I'm almost desperate to write a Being Human/Bedlam crossover, so maybe tonight I do that.
I marathoned Justified last week because I cannot resist Timothy Olymphant in any medium. (Yes, he is also one of the reasons I'm planning on seeing "I Am Number Four".) (Dianna and Alex are two more reasons.) I'm hardcore Team Ava, though honestly I'd ship her with Boyd as well as Raylan. The show itself is fantastic, very...deliberate. It has a steady pace of fantastic drama, the relationships between the characters are complex and deep...I don't know, I just really adore it.
In real life...I find myself in a bit of a dilemma. I have a friend at work who I've grown closer to in the past month, since she broke up with her tool boyfriend (he cheated...alot...and she found out). She kinda needed someone and we'd been casual friends, and somehow I became her rock. The problem is that I get tired of people so quickly, I'm rigidly anti-social to a fault. I'm not tired of her or anything, I'm just wary of...hurting her feelings? I do that often, unintentionally, and I try not to...but it often involves me having to lie. Small lies to get out of doing things with people, because I don't have the patience to dredge up enough restraint to not be a bitch.
The thing is I try really hard not to hold things against people when the things they've done are things I would do myself. Stubborn-ness? I do it, so I forgive it. Rudeness? I do it, so I forgive it.
However, I caught her in a small lie. Something so tiny and non-hurtful it's ridiculous, but it's suddenly making me think. If she lies about that, what else is she lying about? It makes me think about the stuff I lie about and wonder if she does such a large scale fake persona as well. I do the things I do to make my life easier, so that the men I work with will stop hitting on me, and that the people I'm friendly to give me the distance I crave without feeling sleighted. My friend, though, is not that type of person. She does things to start trouble, not avoid it. I've always known this, which means I take her with a grain of salt most of the time.
I feel unfair, I guess. Can I hold it against her, even subconsciously, something I do myself?