i try really hard, actually
my room is bare, and i kind of like it. in the same way that sometimes I like being naked or remembering people who hurt me; seeing plain mattresses and plain walls reminds me how easily comfort can be stripped away. i do find, however, that a computer is a much less effective time-waster in an empty room. with the support of a heavily knick-knacked environment and voices sneaking in from adjacent rooms, the computer seems to contain shelves upon shelves of curiosities. now with empty closets I can only be honest and say that my list of business is short after I've checked my email and facebook. mr. ogge left thursday, colin left saturday, anna left this afternoon. I'll probably see at least one of them this summer, but chances are good that two of the three will be senior year reacquaintances.
notably, today was also my twentieth birthday. i was in a pretty neutral mood most of the day, occasionally venturing into surly. not prepared to give up my childhood or my childishness. not prepared for the next year, just wanting to know what's happening in the next two months. it was heartwarming to get a wide span of facebook and text message birthday greetings, and even speak to a few of the VIPs on the phone. mr. foss called but i don't think he realized it was my birthday. whatever, he was a pretty integral part of the preliminary birthday. I find it rather amusing when people forget.
i wish i could sleep in my own bed. i enjoy this solitude, but that doesn't mean I'm glad you're gone.
tomorrow to shelburne. day after to CT, followed by Rockville Centre. Finally home/Tulsa. Pray for Friday, the day things should start to make sense.
krmh
(laurel says she always mistakes my initials for some kind of exasperated grunt when she first reads them)
notably, today was also my twentieth birthday. i was in a pretty neutral mood most of the day, occasionally venturing into surly. not prepared to give up my childhood or my childishness. not prepared for the next year, just wanting to know what's happening in the next two months. it was heartwarming to get a wide span of facebook and text message birthday greetings, and even speak to a few of the VIPs on the phone. mr. foss called but i don't think he realized it was my birthday. whatever, he was a pretty integral part of the preliminary birthday. I find it rather amusing when people forget.
i wish i could sleep in my own bed. i enjoy this solitude, but that doesn't mean I'm glad you're gone.
tomorrow to shelburne. day after to CT, followed by Rockville Centre. Finally home/Tulsa. Pray for Friday, the day things should start to make sense.
krmh
(laurel says she always mistakes my initials for some kind of exasperated grunt when she first reads them)