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Well...what can I say...things are over between me and Mel...and God how I hate it...there are still alot of things that I want to know...like, why she had time to call,email,talk to everyone else. but she always seemed to forget to call, or write me. I give her credit for the text messages she sent me tho. that made me feel so loved. my heart would like skip a beat. just knowing that she was thinking of me...that she cared. Now I don't know. with people telling me all this stuff, that she did. feels like I was lied to alot. and that she didn't even want to be around me. she used to always leave when I was with her at school. then it stopped for a while. then before we broke up it started again. why she thought that we were growing distant...because we had a chance to see eachother more than once outside of school...but she wanted to go to the movie with her friends, when she told me that she was going to go somewhere with her mom so she couldn't do anything. but someone was telling me that she was going to the movies with her friends, while she was telling me that she was going with her mom. She thinking about that makes me think that she didn't want to be with me...GOD...I can't understand that...why??? she says that she dosen't were her emotion on her shoulder...well when we would ACTUALLY be alone then she would. what was so differet with her friends or people around. She says it was because of her parents...is that true...because we had the same problem a few months ago...she stayed with me then...I mean sure I would like to have seen her out side of school more, but I got to see her five times a week. you know...at school...so I was happy...and how she seemed to be flirting with other guys...or things like that. So I gave her a hard time about things like that. so she would know that it bothered me...she already new because she told me she would stop doing it...she never did...I don't know...I am trying not to let it get to me but everytime i am alone then my mind wonders to her...just think about her...I can't stand the pain...I am ok if I am occupied. but once I see her, hear her, or think of her I feel like I am on the edge of tears...it is so hard to see her at school and not be able to talk to her the way I used too...or just give her a hug...or hold her...or kiss her....I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can not stand it....help me........
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