Bad Morning
My heart is screaming at me. It's mad that I haven't been able to fulfill it's needs after 3 decades of being on this world. I haven't felt this kind of anxiety in a long time and I don't know why this suddenly hit me. I don't want to say it's due to my friend getting married in the near future because that would be a shit mindset to have. But I have never had the love that I so desire fell and return in like. I don't really have friends anymore, either. I never really did. Most of my cousins have groups of friends, but I don't and it's embarrassing that I am tagging along with kids years younger than I am just because I haven't been able to make close friends. I have all these possessions, but they are damn near useless with out friends with whom to share. I need to figure out how to get out of my rut.