In Japan . .. Yet
I still love her . . .
All it takes it one little thing to just spark up anxiety when it comes to HER. I saw that the Elm Mall started selling Calla Lilies. Of course a reminder of the first and only true LOVE OF MY LIFE. All I can do since seeing those lilies is think about HER . . .
There are only 2 others that I cared for anywhere near as much as (actually I will admit that I Cared for one more and and the other about the same) . . . Peach. The only thing they all have in common is rejecting/not accepting me as a significant other. I feel life a pathetic being, at 28, only having 1 girlfriend to this very date. What makes that worse is that one GF was a bit slow, ans SHE was the one to break up with me.
I think I need to just take a cocky attitude with girls and make 'em think that I don't care whether they reject me or not. I dunno, I guess I gotta show some confidence that I don't have to try and meet girls. although in a way to make it seem uninterested. I dunno, I feel like I'd be a great BF if I were just given a chance. Too bad the last few girls I would have treated like queens didn't want me, although they probably didn't know that.
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All it takes it one little thing to just spark up anxiety when it comes to HER. I saw that the Elm Mall started selling Calla Lilies. Of course a reminder of the first and only true LOVE OF MY LIFE. All I can do since seeing those lilies is think about HER . . .
There are only 2 others that I cared for anywhere near as much as (actually I will admit that I Cared for one more and and the other about the same) . . . Peach. The only thing they all have in common is rejecting/not accepting me as a significant other. I feel life a pathetic being, at 28, only having 1 girlfriend to this very date. What makes that worse is that one GF was a bit slow, ans SHE was the one to break up with me.
I think I need to just take a cocky attitude with girls and make 'em think that I don't care whether they reject me or not. I dunno, I guess I gotta show some confidence that I don't have to try and meet girls. although in a way to make it seem uninterested. I dunno, I feel like I'd be a great BF if I were just given a chance. Too bad the last few girls I would have treated like queens didn't want me, although they probably didn't know that.
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