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It's odd when people split apart but do not end. Kristy is leaving in a week, or should I say that I am leaving in a week and when I return she won't be here. We have agreed to stay in the relationship and work on issues from a long distance. I don't know how either of us are going to feel about that in say 2 months...perhaps sooner. It will be hard, as life should be, and I think there will be many breakdowns ( mostly on my part ) but if we can survive it all the outcome will justify the means, I hope. The time that we have allowed each other will be life changing...good or bad? You tell me. The future isn't something I wish to think about right now. We have 7 days together, 1 week until nothing. But this is what I want, this is what I need. I don't know, perhaps I am just so damn indecisive that it is too much to handle. Perhaps I am not. I guess that isn't something that I must decided, that is out of my hands, that is the bird that must fly away...the snow will continue to fall...the flowers will grow...the leaves will change and die...and the snow will greet me again...just me.
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