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"self,
you arrogant, critical swine.
absorb, expand, ALL.
fucking ALL.
an open mind works both/ALL ways."
i recorded myself saying that today. frustrations with myself, my surroundings, my past, my town, my family, my friends, and how these things affect my music are all starting to show and pour out of me. i wish i knew of a logical and feasible way to go to a place where i could find and surround myself with open, educated, experienced, positive minds. im feeling restrained. i want to better myself, and not assume i know all there is to know, and i want the people around me to feel the same. i want to challenge myself and try to accept my imperfections and then grow from them. im not destroying myself over this, but i would love to be able to make music the best way i can imagine. unfortunately, i dont have the resources.
i dont feel like anyone understands, and really, i couldn't expect them to.
for now, ill just keep mentally blaming Pennsylvania, which is so Pennsylvanian of me.
you arrogant, critical swine.
absorb, expand, ALL.
fucking ALL.
an open mind works both/ALL ways."
i recorded myself saying that today. frustrations with myself, my surroundings, my past, my town, my family, my friends, and how these things affect my music are all starting to show and pour out of me. i wish i knew of a logical and feasible way to go to a place where i could find and surround myself with open, educated, experienced, positive minds. im feeling restrained. i want to better myself, and not assume i know all there is to know, and i want the people around me to feel the same. i want to challenge myself and try to accept my imperfections and then grow from them. im not destroying myself over this, but i would love to be able to make music the best way i can imagine. unfortunately, i dont have the resources.
i dont feel like anyone understands, and really, i couldn't expect them to.
for now, ill just keep mentally blaming Pennsylvania, which is so Pennsylvanian of me.