Getting back on track

Jan 04, 2011 15:03

I'm determined to get back on this getting-in-shape thing. I'd been going steadily to the gym 5 days a week for about 3 months (I looked amazing- the best I ever have!) when I met Jess and got way sidetracked. I havent put a whole lot of weight back on yet, 10-15 lbs tops, but I know I've gained a couple inches because I'm up from a size 12 to a 16.

I think the switch has flipped in my mind to get back on it though, because the last couple days I've been eating less, actually stopping when I'm full, which is how I lost all that weight the first time. Its not something I consciously think about, I hadnt even noticed I'd been doing it until last night. I made something for dinner that we havent had in a while, tuna melts. I usually eat both of mine, and sometimes finish Jess' when she doesnt eat it all. Last night I ate 1. And that was it. I was full, I didnt want anymore, so I put the other one down, thinking I might eat it later. But I never did want to. My problem with food has always been that if there is good food in front of me, I WILL eat it. Blame it on growing up with a grandmother who went on and on about starving kids in third-world countries. Lol. So this is a huge thing for me. Its how I lost 60 lbs with barely going to the gym a couple years back. That was actually when and why I started this blog.

I also realized I actually MISS going to the gym. I miss the feeling of accomplishment and the sense of self-worth and the confidence it gave me. The confidence that spilled over into every aspect of my life. Like dancing in a club for the first time without a drop of alcohol, not giving two shits about the fact that I have no rhythm. AND this was with a complete stranger, I might add. (I blogged about it, go back about a year and read it if you like- cola85.livejournal.com/19803.html) I miss that added bit of confidence and competence at work, school, even just walking through the store. Its time to get my ass back in gear!

Now we just have to figure out when and where. Logically, the best time for me to go would be during the day when Jess is at work. But she wants to go too, so the only time we could both go is when she gets off at night, which, depending on her schedule that particular day, could be anywhere between 5 and 7, and occasionally 9:30. And where... Kelly wants us to come to PF with her, but its in Hickory. Not a big deal for her, but a good 20 minute drive for us. And I'd really rather not deal with that every night if I dont have to. I'm gonna look into the Y here in town and the other local gym. We're on a really tight budget, and I know PF would only be $20 for both of us, so the others would have to be cheap for both of us. We'll figure something out.
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