Fun weekend
I realized just today that I haven't updated that much during the month of February but it's not a total loss, this month hasn't been that spectacular.
I started physical therapy for my back and it's been going well. I have some stretches that I do pretty regularly and I've been going to UHS twice a week to get ultrasound treatment and some massage done. My PT thinks I pulled a little stabilizer muscle along my backbone and that's why it's been hurting. I've been sleeping with a pillow between my knees, and I don't feel like a flipped-over turtle when I get out of bed.
School hasn't been hard or busy, I've just had a big problem with depression and anxiety lately. I know I have all these things to do and I just don't want to do them. I had my psych midterm last week and I didn't want to study at all, and I paid for it by getting a C. I had a minor breakdown last week because lately, when I leave my education classes, I feel miserable. I have the same people in all my classes, and I feel so ignorant compared to them. They seem to just think about things better than me, and their responses are so well-thought out and put together. Whenever I participate, I feel like every just goes "that's nice... moving on..." I feel like I'm not thinking about issues, readings, and topics the same way as they are, like there's something not right about the way that I'm thinking. I broke down crying to Nick because I don't want to be a teacher, I don't think I'm going to be a good teacher and I don't belong in the program. It was just a very bad time and I've been thinking about going to CAPS or something.
We made hotel reservations for spring break last week so I'm excited. His mom said that in return for Nick staying home & watching Tori during the week while his parents are in the Bahamas (we were planning on going to Toronto from Monday to Thursday but his parents are going to be in the Bahamas during that time, his mom would pay for our hotel room if we went over the weekend instead. Quite the deal because the hotel room is the most expensive part of the trip... I bought a dress to wear when we go see Phantom of the Opera. I'm really excited for obvious reasons... I've never been on a trip for spring break, ever.
We had a belated Valentine's Day celebration; this past Friday, we went to Birmingham to reminisce about the first summer we dated since that first summer, we met every week in Birmingham to get dinner and a movie. We got dinner at Buca di Beppo which was good as always; we initially got chicken cannelloni, but I didn't care for it at all and we were able to switch it for manicotti. We had a great waitress who gave Nick wine (she was cool and I mentioned that his birthday was in a month anyway). Just a great night in general.
Last night I went out with Nick's sister Rachael. We initially planned to go to Goodnite Gracie but it was early, so we went to Pizza House for a snack and first drinks. Then onto Mitch's where I thought they had $2 pitchers every night but it's only on Monday and Wednesday; we got one anyway. Then we went over to Gracie's but it was beyond packed; I was a little bummed out because the music was great. We went to Ashley's instead and got carbombs and martinis, then we went to this party that some of the guys from work were throwing. That was actually a lot of fun and we got drunk... called Nick at 3:30am to come pick us up from Jimmy John's because we were very drunk. Just a good night all around. It's really amazing what you'll talk about when you're drunk... we talked about weddings and boyfriends and just girl stuff. I had a lot of fun.
So I suppose that's enough with the procrastination. I need to teach something at SAI tonight, maybe some scholarship things. I dunno. Between the UM hockey game and my hangover, I'm not being very productive.
I started physical therapy for my back and it's been going well. I have some stretches that I do pretty regularly and I've been going to UHS twice a week to get ultrasound treatment and some massage done. My PT thinks I pulled a little stabilizer muscle along my backbone and that's why it's been hurting. I've been sleeping with a pillow between my knees, and I don't feel like a flipped-over turtle when I get out of bed.
School hasn't been hard or busy, I've just had a big problem with depression and anxiety lately. I know I have all these things to do and I just don't want to do them. I had my psych midterm last week and I didn't want to study at all, and I paid for it by getting a C. I had a minor breakdown last week because lately, when I leave my education classes, I feel miserable. I have the same people in all my classes, and I feel so ignorant compared to them. They seem to just think about things better than me, and their responses are so well-thought out and put together. Whenever I participate, I feel like every just goes "that's nice... moving on..." I feel like I'm not thinking about issues, readings, and topics the same way as they are, like there's something not right about the way that I'm thinking. I broke down crying to Nick because I don't want to be a teacher, I don't think I'm going to be a good teacher and I don't belong in the program. It was just a very bad time and I've been thinking about going to CAPS or something.
We made hotel reservations for spring break last week so I'm excited. His mom said that in return for Nick staying home & watching Tori during the week while his parents are in the Bahamas (we were planning on going to Toronto from Monday to Thursday but his parents are going to be in the Bahamas during that time, his mom would pay for our hotel room if we went over the weekend instead. Quite the deal because the hotel room is the most expensive part of the trip... I bought a dress to wear when we go see Phantom of the Opera. I'm really excited for obvious reasons... I've never been on a trip for spring break, ever.
We had a belated Valentine's Day celebration; this past Friday, we went to Birmingham to reminisce about the first summer we dated since that first summer, we met every week in Birmingham to get dinner and a movie. We got dinner at Buca di Beppo which was good as always; we initially got chicken cannelloni, but I didn't care for it at all and we were able to switch it for manicotti. We had a great waitress who gave Nick wine (she was cool and I mentioned that his birthday was in a month anyway). Just a great night in general.
Last night I went out with Nick's sister Rachael. We initially planned to go to Goodnite Gracie but it was early, so we went to Pizza House for a snack and first drinks. Then onto Mitch's where I thought they had $2 pitchers every night but it's only on Monday and Wednesday; we got one anyway. Then we went over to Gracie's but it was beyond packed; I was a little bummed out because the music was great. We went to Ashley's instead and got carbombs and martinis, then we went to this party that some of the guys from work were throwing. That was actually a lot of fun and we got drunk... called Nick at 3:30am to come pick us up from Jimmy John's because we were very drunk. Just a good night all around. It's really amazing what you'll talk about when you're drunk... we talked about weddings and boyfriends and just girl stuff. I had a lot of fun.
So I suppose that's enough with the procrastination. I need to teach something at SAI tonight, maybe some scholarship things. I dunno. Between the UM hockey game and my hangover, I'm not being very productive.