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its official: im a mess.
im too selfish! if this thing happens that is most likely going to, well then; i should be happy for them? but im not. and i probably wont be? so, i guess im going to have to get real good at lying over the next week? dammit. i somehow finda way to make myself feel completely vulnerable [sp?]! i cant let this happen. i needa regain the important things, & not worry about this nonsense. too bad its not that easy. all ive been thinking 'bout today is this dumbass thing. shitfuckadakjfddamnass.
stephens party was laast night. i felt bad for not talking to his friends. i apologized, he said it was no biggie. i got up the courage and finally did a flip. GO ME!! not to mention, got him the most amaazing gift on the planet! it included: a card the size of me. [NO JOKE THIS THING WAS HUUUGE!] and, a watergun, some twirly air things, you throw them in the air, and they spin. and a watergunsucker, and two necklaces. yehyeaah. it was cool dawg. :]he had fun and im glad he did.
sister bondage time todaay. wootwoot. ;)
i need someone to come comfort me and get fat?
i feel like telling everyone everything. but i know ill just get disappointed and hurt. i also know that ill probably end up doing it anyways. ive bit my tongue for way too long this time. EEK!
HAHAHA. you'de think i was miserable or something. im really not; i promise. im just, upset with myself. i let someone into my life and i shouldnt have. i wanna go back to not trusting anyone again. my stomach is hurting. im dizzy. i needa lie down.
woah. 'nough dumbass feelings for one day. <3 <3
im too selfish! if this thing happens that is most likely going to, well then; i should be happy for them? but im not. and i probably wont be? so, i guess im going to have to get real good at lying over the next week? dammit. i somehow finda way to make myself feel completely vulnerable [sp?]! i cant let this happen. i needa regain the important things, & not worry about this nonsense. too bad its not that easy. all ive been thinking 'bout today is this dumbass thing. shitfuckadakjfddamnass.
stephens party was laast night. i felt bad for not talking to his friends. i apologized, he said it was no biggie. i got up the courage and finally did a flip. GO ME!! not to mention, got him the most amaazing gift on the planet! it included: a card the size of me. [NO JOKE THIS THING WAS HUUUGE!] and, a watergun, some twirly air things, you throw them in the air, and they spin. and a watergunsucker, and two necklaces. yehyeaah. it was cool dawg. :]he had fun and im glad he did.
sister bondage time todaay. wootwoot. ;)
i need someone to come comfort me and get fat?
i feel like telling everyone everything. but i know ill just get disappointed and hurt. i also know that ill probably end up doing it anyways. ive bit my tongue for way too long this time. EEK!
HAHAHA. you'de think i was miserable or something. im really not; i promise. im just, upset with myself. i let someone into my life and i shouldnt have. i wanna go back to not trusting anyone again. my stomach is hurting. im dizzy. i needa lie down.
woah. 'nough dumbass feelings for one day. <3 <3