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[coinoperateded]

I'm having trouble tonight keeping my cravings at bay.
I feel like doing whatever I have to do to get what I want.
And that is a horrible feeling.
It brings me close to tears.
Nothing is funny right now.
Even though I pretend to laugh.
Maybe I want to get caught so I can scream and cry.
Acting like I'm not still broken is really wearing thin.
I'm scared to move on with my life because that means I will have to live it.
I'm lusting over things that are sharp.
I want to turn rock into powder.
I want a reason to feel like this.