10 weeks
i have another thing to add to my regret page, but i cant act like i didnt know what would ....... i did it. it seems like nothing ever happened. i wish it didnt.
brian and i have been good. we have our things to work on, but its still a new relationship. i always find things to bother me, i hate it. i always feel as though he is not telling me the complete story, but i dont have anything to back it up, but i have to work on it. i am to scared to, what if i get hurt, again? but that should be a risk i am willing to take.
do you ever think of the future with someone, like marriage and kids and living in a house.. all that and get butterflies in your stomach? i do... but then i get scared. i think i am afraid of being commited, i love all of that, but it just scares me.
... so should i move to colorado?
The light from the window is fading
You turn on the night
The sound from the avenue's calling you
Open your eyes
"And when you find
You're spending your time
Wanting for words
But never speak
You tell yourself
That the things you need come slow
But inside you just don't know
My, my, my
Let your bright light shine
Let your words live on
Far beyond this life
Beyond this life
Hold on to anything
Everything's over and done
Has the fear taken over you
Tell me
Is that what you want
To make up your life
Time after time
You're falling behind
Hold on to me
Never leave
Forever be what you mean to me right now
Don't you feel better now "
brian and i have been good. we have our things to work on, but its still a new relationship. i always find things to bother me, i hate it. i always feel as though he is not telling me the complete story, but i dont have anything to back it up, but i have to work on it. i am to scared to, what if i get hurt, again? but that should be a risk i am willing to take.
do you ever think of the future with someone, like marriage and kids and living in a house.. all that and get butterflies in your stomach? i do... but then i get scared. i think i am afraid of being commited, i love all of that, but it just scares me.
... so should i move to colorado?
The light from the window is fading
You turn on the night
The sound from the avenue's calling you
Open your eyes
"And when you find
You're spending your time
Wanting for words
But never speak
You tell yourself
That the things you need come slow
But inside you just don't know
My, my, my
Let your bright light shine
Let your words live on
Far beyond this life
Beyond this life
Hold on to anything
Everything's over and done
Has the fear taken over you
Tell me
Is that what you want
To make up your life
Time after time
You're falling behind
Hold on to me
Never leave
Forever be what you mean to me right now
Don't you feel better now "