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so today i found myself facebooking and on the news feed there was a wall-to-wall between two girls i grew up with. (danielle stern and jackie gurrieri if you know me long enough for that to matter) and i clicked on danielle's name. only to find out that she's in tri-sigma like me. we're sisters. one of the girls who made my childhood miserable is my SISTER. does anyone else find irony in that? and so the day progressed and i felt like looking up all of my old staten island friends. and all i really found was that they all look the same and for the most part, all act like one another. most pictures are of them in clubs, tanned to the point of no return, dyed hair, stick skinny and accompanied by a guido boyfriend. i'm not sure if maybe i'm "too jersey" now to understand, but other than a very select few... most of the girls i grew up with ended up like that. and what's the point really? i mean, when they facebook stalk me and see all of my pictures, is that the impression that they get? that i grew up to be whatever -- a party going, drinking, slut? or do they see something worse? an overweight, pale, waste of time? it's just something to chew on i guess... i just wonder, cos my impressions of them are so weak at this point in time. and mind you, these are all girls that i do not talk to anymore at all, so maybe that's saying something too. but really, it kind of threw me through a loop to see all of these girls that at one point i thought i would know forever turn out to be the above stated. and what if i had stayed, i'd be the exact same thing. i know i would. cos i was getting more and more into that crowd before i left. i was integrating into danielle and jackie's group. i was best friends with ilenia. and it's just crazy to think about...
completely random i know, but it's on my mind.
completely random i know, but it's on my mind.