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T. is so fricking messed up. Yesterday he kept calling my his girl and saying that he wants to get married. I was like what the heck i barely even know you. Why is it guys are so weird? They'll call you every day then one day they just drop you. I mean what the heck? I do not understand. I think what I need to do is find a boyfriend that i seriously care about and just stay with him. The only guy that I ever really, really cared about never even knew I saw him that way. Now we dont' even talk. I think if I could do anything over, I'd go back and tell him how I felt. Now, he's got another girlfriend and its too late. I can't even remember the last time we talked. I should've told him. Instead I screwed everything up. I don't know. I wish I could at least be friends with him. Maybe it will all work out in the end. I dont' know. Everything feels so different and empty without him. Maybe someday I'll be able to tell him how i feel without screwing it all up again.