An update
Hey everyone yea here goes an update. Yea things have been really weird around here lately i miss my little buddy so much nobody understands. I just feel like everything that is and/or was good in my life ever is gone or leaving it sucks. I mean its like everyone was leaving for college and like i didn't care sorry guys but its just like someone said " this goodbye felt like a see ya tomorrow when its really see ya in a few months" and i mean yea i know what they meant but its like my goodbye to my brother felt like ill see you in the morning or ill see you in 2 seconds b.c i could never go anywhere without him he just wouldn't let, "AntAnt you no go byebye without me". I love him so much. Aidan you no byebye without me. I never ever thought id be saying goodbye to my 2 year old stud of a baby brother. i mean its not fair at all he had so much going for him. I miss the kid so much. But i realized who my real friends are who spent days with me at the hospital, held me up when i couldn't even stand and were just there for me and are still there. But something that really got to me was the fact that some of the pettiness that stayed throughout it but w.e. im over it i guess. I don't know if anyone can relate to any of the pain i feel but i don't know i just want to take him back or just for him to wake up and have him look at me and laugh and tell me its time to play. I would give anything to hear him laugh again or to see his beautiful blue eyes look up at me and for him to say that im his best friend. I love you aidan. Im sick of being the strong one and telling everyone its okay im fine im not but i don't want to bother people with my complianing but im not okay im hurt and i feel torn apart i mean i don't sleep b.c when i sleep all i see is him and i just want to grab him and bring him home and i just have nightmares of everything that is going on. I know i have so many people i just feel the most alone i ever did in my whole entire life. Im missing my sidekick, my other half, my best buddy, and most of all my baby brother. I still can't believe he weny "bye bye without me". I don't have anyone to buy french fries for anymore. I want one more "muah" and not a "hair muah", i want a "lip mauh"! i have so many memories with him and im so happy for them i just wanted to make more. i love you aidan and thank you to everyone who has been there for me i thank you so much.