Ego wank
I have to admit, I'm seriously thinking of writing my ED memoir. I'm trying to find a way to make it 'worthy' - not self-serving ego wank. So it's got to add something to the sum total of ED literature already out there (not that I think there can ever be too much info, too many insights into these diseases). So I guess I'd pitch it as an adult's POV and someone who is still struggling, I'm not writing from a recovered POV. I'm well read (obsessed) about the subject but have no relevant scientific or academic qualifications. I don't want to pander to tabloid sensationalism but on the other hand, I feel I have to be dramatically sick to make it worth publishing. I'll keep gathering my information and insights and try to start a draft, at least. I'm reading an interesting book called Just the Way You Are: How Heredity and Experience Create the Individual. It's not about EDs but it's interesting reading if you want to find out more about why you are the way you are.
I have a cold and an infected jaw and my period is trying to start. I've also been very depressed, probably due to my financial woes. Some days it's impossible to leave the house other times I just want to hop on a train to anywhere and escape.
Last weekend we had visitors and I kinda fell off the restricting wagon (went on a 72hr booze and cake bender, more like). I'm not beating myself up about it too much. I can almost convince myself it'll kick start my metabolism and spur me on to restrict harder from now on.
I also joined a community for posting my daily food intake. So I won't be cluttering up this LJ with my occaisional compulsive listing.
I have a cold and an infected jaw and my period is trying to start. I've also been very depressed, probably due to my financial woes. Some days it's impossible to leave the house other times I just want to hop on a train to anywhere and escape.
Last weekend we had visitors and I kinda fell off the restricting wagon (went on a 72hr booze and cake bender, more like). I'm not beating myself up about it too much. I can almost convince myself it'll kick start my metabolism and spur me on to restrict harder from now on.
I also joined a community for posting my daily food intake. So I won't be cluttering up this LJ with my occaisional compulsive listing.