♚ Maybe It's Better This Way
Maybe It's Better This Way
pairing: JongHyun/Jessica
rating: G
genre: angst, romance
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“Back so soon, let me guess? They didn’t like your attitude”
Kim JongHyun loved to speak to Jessica Jung rudely, roughly and teasingly with hurtful words.
“Nice to see you to, jerk”
And Jessica Jung loved to show him, her so called “ice princess” aura.
Jessica Jung also loved, stomping on his heart, ripping it up to pieces and set it on fire with her smirk (not literally or he wouldn’t even be sulking about it like a lovesick-puppy). She thought she was ‘too cool’ for him, she never flashed him a smile or even a nice, respectful greeting was ever heard between the two of them.
“Your dancing suck shit, where’s the energy? Didn’t Hyoyeon noona teach you anything?”
Kim JongHyun watched in joy as Jung Sooyeon collapsed on the floor and bawled her eyes out. He loved to make her feel the worse about herself, he loved to see her frown, he loved to see her shed tears even if it’s just a little, he loved to see her screams in torture and that was all because he couldn’t admit that she had stolen his heart.
“You must be that guy everyone’s talk about, you’re debuting in SHINee right?”
Her first word, not even a simple “Hey” or “Hi” was mentioned in their first conversation. He just replied with a nod at that time, he stills respect her as his senior (as a person, more likely) back then.
“Don’t fall flat on your face on your debut stage and you’ll do okay, not good or great”
Encouraging, isn’t it? While all other seniors gave him flowers and encouraging words, Jessica Jung simply tried dragging him down with her oh, so ‘encouraging’ words.
“What the hell was that? You sounded like a dying cat”
The smile, the happiness, the bright expression on her face, disgusted him so much that he couldn’t even possibly put it into words. So even if Kim JongHyun had to dial her number in the middle of the night to tell her something along that line, he was fine with it as long as she suffers. She would throw back some insults, if she’s tired she would cry, if she was in a bad mood she would hang up and occasionally she would beg for him to stop but he doesn’t stop, he never stops.
“Look dude, you know we’re like brother but I’m dating Sica now so you better treat her better from now on”
JongHyun nodded, and swallowed a lump in his throat. He felt his heart dropped, his world falling apart in a painfully slow motion and the feeling of wanting to torture Jessica Jung more arrived again. So he pretended that this never happened, went back to dance practice and danced until he couldn’t feel his legs. Jessica Jung walked pass him later that day with her boyfriend, she giggled, she laughed, she smiled. Kim JongHyun didn’t comment, instead he walked pass the two in silence.
“Oppa, oppa, oppa…….yah! oppa”
Sekyung has managed to annoy him again for the fifth time today. She looked him in the eye and held his face close to hers and he knew she was wishing to see something in there, even if it was just a glint but sadly, she won’t ever come across it in this life.
“Why don’t you love me? Why won’t you love me? I can do so much better, I love you………..I really love you…….I love you so much”
She cried silently as JongHyun cruelly refused to hold her. No, he sat there silently staring out the window where he could see Jessica Jung standing there looking like an angle. He didn’t say anything comforting; he didn’t even say a word of farewell when he walked out of the practice room leaving his girlfriend, alone on the floor sobbing.
Kim JongHyun hurts Jessica Jung because maybe it’s better this way.
Kim JongHyun makes Jessica Jung suffer because maybe it’s better this way.
Kim JongHyun secretly handed her his heart a long time ago because maybe it’s better this way.
Kim JongHyun let Jessica Jung slipped away so easily because he knew it was the right thing to do……….because maybe it’s better this way.
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A/N: Why JongHyun?, Why? TT