Aweful.
Last night I hate the most aweful dream. I have had two other dreams that even relate to this catigory of awefulness. It was horrible. I woke up and my heart was beating and I was sweating. It wasn't a horror dream or nothing, but it was so real that I was upset. It was about my uncle and andrew. Death was also part of this dream. I dont want to type what happened, because i dont want to remember it. It was aweful.
I dont knw. I went back to sleep, after I woke up and had a continued part of the dream ... it wasn't as bad, but it still wasn't good. I hate that... i hate bad dreams. They are aweful.
I'm so tired, because i didn't get much sleep and I have a lot to do today.
Andrew is supposed to be coming over later, which i'm happy about. At least hes ok. Unlike in my dream.
Anyway, on a lighter note.
School starts in just a few short weeks. I'm sorta excited, but not at the same time. I can't believe i'm going to be a SENIOR this year. It seems so, impossible. Like i've been waiting for this, sense i can remember, and its finally here. If this year goes by so fast, like my junior year, I will be a high school grad pretty damn soon. It seems so awesome. Those I've talked to said that its really not a great as it seems, but i'm excited. I've waited for this for so long and I deserve it. Maybe my freshman and sophomore year were not so great, at least the beginning part of the year of the sophomore year. Anyway, i've worked my butt off last year and the tail end of my spohomore year and I'im ready for this, and i will do it and do good. I can't wait.
I have my own plans for after schools out too. I jsut don't know which of my plans I will get to live out. I want some different things...but most of all, i want to get a degree, and i want to have an awesome, home, that is ME. Somewhere, where i can go and feel relaxed and happy to be home. It doesn't have to be hi-tech or anything like that, so long as its me. Thats what I want. And, eventually, i want to have family to provide for in that home. I want to make my home a home for my family and all of our friends. This place will be fun, and happy, and there will be respect given to everyone and everyone will be happy. Sure, we will have our arguments and hard times, but what real family doesnt? Its the hard times that make the good times even better. I truly believe that. Thats the message I wanna send to my kids and grandkids and everyone who i cross paths with.
Well, anyway... enough gushy stuff for today.
<3 Xo Melissa
I dont knw. I went back to sleep, after I woke up and had a continued part of the dream ... it wasn't as bad, but it still wasn't good. I hate that... i hate bad dreams. They are aweful.
I'm so tired, because i didn't get much sleep and I have a lot to do today.
Andrew is supposed to be coming over later, which i'm happy about. At least hes ok. Unlike in my dream.
Anyway, on a lighter note.
School starts in just a few short weeks. I'm sorta excited, but not at the same time. I can't believe i'm going to be a SENIOR this year. It seems so, impossible. Like i've been waiting for this, sense i can remember, and its finally here. If this year goes by so fast, like my junior year, I will be a high school grad pretty damn soon. It seems so awesome. Those I've talked to said that its really not a great as it seems, but i'm excited. I've waited for this for so long and I deserve it. Maybe my freshman and sophomore year were not so great, at least the beginning part of the year of the sophomore year. Anyway, i've worked my butt off last year and the tail end of my spohomore year and I'im ready for this, and i will do it and do good. I can't wait.
I have my own plans for after schools out too. I jsut don't know which of my plans I will get to live out. I want some different things...but most of all, i want to get a degree, and i want to have an awesome, home, that is ME. Somewhere, where i can go and feel relaxed and happy to be home. It doesn't have to be hi-tech or anything like that, so long as its me. Thats what I want. And, eventually, i want to have family to provide for in that home. I want to make my home a home for my family and all of our friends. This place will be fun, and happy, and there will be respect given to everyone and everyone will be happy. Sure, we will have our arguments and hard times, but what real family doesnt? Its the hard times that make the good times even better. I truly believe that. Thats the message I wanna send to my kids and grandkids and everyone who i cross paths with.
Well, anyway... enough gushy stuff for today.
<3 Xo Melissa