WoW!
I have a lot on my mind.
About one main subject in particular. However, I'm thinking about a lot.
First of all, I didn't get to go move in with my mom like I hoped...but I'm going for the summer and I guess we'll go from there. I don't know. Its once whole confusing situation and Im all a mess with it. Truthfully I don't want to talk about it.
Next subject.
I can't or do I want to go into detail at all with this, so it will be vague. One, maybe two people reading this will know what I'm talking about ... if that. Im really sorry for those of you who actually take the time to read this damn thing, but its the thing thats been on my mind a lot the past few days and I need to get it down. I thought talking would help, which ive been doing with Andrew, but it only helps to an extent.
Andrew and I have been discussing a new "thing." This "thing" started as a joke - but then led to a serious conversation. The serious conversation is the thing that got me started thinking about it. Now I'm all confused and I think that this "thing" will never happen. He thinks it should. Whether or not it should is different from if it will. One question is ... do I want it to happen. Which, is the thing that Ive been thinking about a lot lately. First the question was would i do this "thing" if the chance crossed my path and I thought he was kidding, so i kid back and gave him a sarcastic answer. Coming later, to find out, that he was serious. So, now I'm seriously thinking about it. Its nothing thats any MAJOR deal - and truthfully, i'm glad he brought it up because I wouldn't have ever came to him with it - even had i been thinking about it before hand. Its just not something I'd bring up. Its not in my nature. I guess. Now that Ive been thinking about it ... I know I'd be willing to. And I'm almost to the point ... ALMOST... to the point where i'd like to ... do some "farther investigation" in the situation. Simply because when Andrew has something that he thinks is a good idea, hes convincing and at least in this situation - EVERY thing he has said makes sense, and there is no reason why I shouldn't talk to him about it or whatever. I dont know. I feel like I'm bothering him with the whole thing because I think about it a lot and frankly, its driving me nutz. Its not so much "stressing me out" Its just makin me crazy thinking about it. I guess. Then, around the same topic, but a little different, something is bothering him. Which I can totally understand and I'm soo GLAD he talked to me about it. I don't know. I guess, part of me wants it to happen, because i'm a cerious person, and hey, ceriosity killed the cat, right? Well, If i was a cat, i'd be dead. All nine lives. Anyway, and the other part of me wants to be closed minded and say "haha, yah right" but i'd really only be lying to myself if i said that I wasn't at all cerious about the matter and didn't want to investigate it more. and then - i guess a small third part wants to just say i'm willing. I guess. I don't know.
Anyway, I gotta get going. Its starting to get late, and I'm tired.
Goodnight all.
.Xo.Melissa.Xo.
About one main subject in particular. However, I'm thinking about a lot.
First of all, I didn't get to go move in with my mom like I hoped...but I'm going for the summer and I guess we'll go from there. I don't know. Its once whole confusing situation and Im all a mess with it. Truthfully I don't want to talk about it.
Next subject.
I can't or do I want to go into detail at all with this, so it will be vague. One, maybe two people reading this will know what I'm talking about ... if that. Im really sorry for those of you who actually take the time to read this damn thing, but its the thing thats been on my mind a lot the past few days and I need to get it down. I thought talking would help, which ive been doing with Andrew, but it only helps to an extent.
Andrew and I have been discussing a new "thing." This "thing" started as a joke - but then led to a serious conversation. The serious conversation is the thing that got me started thinking about it. Now I'm all confused and I think that this "thing" will never happen. He thinks it should. Whether or not it should is different from if it will. One question is ... do I want it to happen. Which, is the thing that Ive been thinking about a lot lately. First the question was would i do this "thing" if the chance crossed my path and I thought he was kidding, so i kid back and gave him a sarcastic answer. Coming later, to find out, that he was serious. So, now I'm seriously thinking about it. Its nothing thats any MAJOR deal - and truthfully, i'm glad he brought it up because I wouldn't have ever came to him with it - even had i been thinking about it before hand. Its just not something I'd bring up. Its not in my nature. I guess. Now that Ive been thinking about it ... I know I'd be willing to. And I'm almost to the point ... ALMOST... to the point where i'd like to ... do some "farther investigation" in the situation. Simply because when Andrew has something that he thinks is a good idea, hes convincing and at least in this situation - EVERY thing he has said makes sense, and there is no reason why I shouldn't talk to him about it or whatever. I dont know. I feel like I'm bothering him with the whole thing because I think about it a lot and frankly, its driving me nutz. Its not so much "stressing me out" Its just makin me crazy thinking about it. I guess. Then, around the same topic, but a little different, something is bothering him. Which I can totally understand and I'm soo GLAD he talked to me about it. I don't know. I guess, part of me wants it to happen, because i'm a cerious person, and hey, ceriosity killed the cat, right? Well, If i was a cat, i'd be dead. All nine lives. Anyway, and the other part of me wants to be closed minded and say "haha, yah right" but i'd really only be lying to myself if i said that I wasn't at all cerious about the matter and didn't want to investigate it more. and then - i guess a small third part wants to just say i'm willing. I guess. I don't know.
Anyway, I gotta get going. Its starting to get late, and I'm tired.
Goodnight all.
.Xo.Melissa.Xo.