Yeah...
IF you don't want to hear some semi bitching - dont read this entry. AND FYI, if I piss you off in this entry - I dont care.
I just got home from the Doctors. I have a UTI *uniary track infection* It is SO not fun. Yeah. No... they gave me these horse pills to take. Exciting. I can't take pills like that. Are you kidding me. Yah yeah, I have to take them, or it will only get worse.
So - as I was waiting for my prescription to get filled, I sat with Lisa. She asked me if i've had sex. Of course I said No. I dont think she believes me and thats ok - because she shouldn't. She said that she doesn't think I would tell her if I was and she is definatly right. I guess my dad said that If i get pregnant I have to move out. The moving out part, wouldn't be so bad - but the having a kid.. that would be horrible. I dont know. Ah.. Im not having a good day - not at all. I hate lying to them - but I'm not going to talk to them and tell them what they want me to. I understand that they are my parents and they care about me and they want me to be heathly and happy and everything, but that doens't mean they need to know every aspect of my life. I am not going to tell them if i am or am not having sex or if i am or am not a virgin. Its bullshit. My dad didn't tell his mom when he had sex - lisa didn't tell her mom - Im not going to tell my mom - or dad or lisa. Talk about an ockward conversation. IDK. I have a lot on my mind. I need to talk to someone. I'll talk to Andrew today - as soon as I can..but I'm not aloud to call him from home because its long distance and I'm not aloud to call him from my cell phone because its wasting minutes. Ah.. So, I've gotta wait until later. For some reason, my parents are acting weird and not letting me go anywhere or do anything - they let me go the red eye last night - which i was suprised - yet i asked about going over to Alli's and they wont let me. However, they'll let andrew or alli come over here - i just can't go pick anyone up. Idk.
Im really irritated with a few people. However I'm not finding that i'm teling these people that i'm irritated with, that I'm irritated with them. I'm not sure that is a good thing.
Someone left a comment on one of my Live Journal entries - that was a little mean. I talked to this person and she told me about it - which, evidently it makes it OK because she told me about it, but hoenstly, it pisses me off. I'm sorry, you know who you are, I'm sorry that I didn't say anything, but at first it didn't bother me, but then I read it, and I was thinking about it and it was a really - not nice move. And No, it doesn't make it ok, that you told me about it. It was still mean, and you said you didn't care.. thats crap. I don't say that I don't care about the things that you have to say. I don't tell you that i wanna throw up when you tell me about things that are going on with you. So much for being able to talk to you. I'm not saying this stuff to be mean or a bitch or whatever and the only reason I'm writing bout it in LJ instead of calling you, is because I don't want to argue and I don't want to call you up and be like "wtf" - its not like i'm so pissed off to the point that I don't want to talk to you- i just don't want to talk about it. I will just remember the way you treat me - and i'll do the same to you. Its fine. I don't have a problem with how you treat me and what you say - but I'm going to start doing the same things to you because thats only fair. Do one to others as you would want them to do one to you. Simple as that. Its a two way streat and the door swings both ways, baby. Whats good enough for me - better be good enough for you. Plus you said that you're sick of people calling to bitch and thats all this is. All I have to say is - Now i understand where everyone is coming from.
This other person that is irritating me, probably doesn't know that they are irritating me. All I have to say to that one is ... Andrew is my boyfriend. I stopped with you when you wanted to stop and see the kid you liked *cough:Josh:cough* and I didn't complain. Andrew is leaving in June and I want to spend every second I can with him - so please get over it.
Ok, so i just got a call from my step mom saying that my dad says I can't have anyon come over. Now Im pissed. I called him and asked him why and he just said "because I said so." WHAT THE FUCK! What is the big fucking deal?! Are you serious?! I hate this. I am doing good in school, its spring break for cryin out loud and this is crap. I have done work around the house and this is crap. I finally have someone who wants to spend time with me - and someone who cares about me and I "see them to much"
Good greif. I hate this crap. Now that I'm pissed beond belief, there is a call i have to make and i'm going to go clean and go for a walk.
..XoXo..
Melissa
I just got home from the Doctors. I have a UTI *uniary track infection* It is SO not fun. Yeah. No... they gave me these horse pills to take. Exciting. I can't take pills like that. Are you kidding me. Yah yeah, I have to take them, or it will only get worse.
So - as I was waiting for my prescription to get filled, I sat with Lisa. She asked me if i've had sex. Of course I said No. I dont think she believes me and thats ok - because she shouldn't. She said that she doesn't think I would tell her if I was and she is definatly right. I guess my dad said that If i get pregnant I have to move out. The moving out part, wouldn't be so bad - but the having a kid.. that would be horrible. I dont know. Ah.. Im not having a good day - not at all. I hate lying to them - but I'm not going to talk to them and tell them what they want me to. I understand that they are my parents and they care about me and they want me to be heathly and happy and everything, but that doens't mean they need to know every aspect of my life. I am not going to tell them if i am or am not having sex or if i am or am not a virgin. Its bullshit. My dad didn't tell his mom when he had sex - lisa didn't tell her mom - Im not going to tell my mom - or dad or lisa. Talk about an ockward conversation. IDK. I have a lot on my mind. I need to talk to someone. I'll talk to Andrew today - as soon as I can..but I'm not aloud to call him from home because its long distance and I'm not aloud to call him from my cell phone because its wasting minutes. Ah.. So, I've gotta wait until later. For some reason, my parents are acting weird and not letting me go anywhere or do anything - they let me go the red eye last night - which i was suprised - yet i asked about going over to Alli's and they wont let me. However, they'll let andrew or alli come over here - i just can't go pick anyone up. Idk.
Im really irritated with a few people. However I'm not finding that i'm teling these people that i'm irritated with, that I'm irritated with them. I'm not sure that is a good thing.
Someone left a comment on one of my Live Journal entries - that was a little mean. I talked to this person and she told me about it - which, evidently it makes it OK because she told me about it, but hoenstly, it pisses me off. I'm sorry, you know who you are, I'm sorry that I didn't say anything, but at first it didn't bother me, but then I read it, and I was thinking about it and it was a really - not nice move. And No, it doesn't make it ok, that you told me about it. It was still mean, and you said you didn't care.. thats crap. I don't say that I don't care about the things that you have to say. I don't tell you that i wanna throw up when you tell me about things that are going on with you. So much for being able to talk to you. I'm not saying this stuff to be mean or a bitch or whatever and the only reason I'm writing bout it in LJ instead of calling you, is because I don't want to argue and I don't want to call you up and be like "wtf" - its not like i'm so pissed off to the point that I don't want to talk to you- i just don't want to talk about it. I will just remember the way you treat me - and i'll do the same to you. Its fine. I don't have a problem with how you treat me and what you say - but I'm going to start doing the same things to you because thats only fair. Do one to others as you would want them to do one to you. Simple as that. Its a two way streat and the door swings both ways, baby. Whats good enough for me - better be good enough for you. Plus you said that you're sick of people calling to bitch and thats all this is. All I have to say is - Now i understand where everyone is coming from.
This other person that is irritating me, probably doesn't know that they are irritating me. All I have to say to that one is ... Andrew is my boyfriend. I stopped with you when you wanted to stop and see the kid you liked *cough:Josh:cough* and I didn't complain. Andrew is leaving in June and I want to spend every second I can with him - so please get over it.
Ok, so i just got a call from my step mom saying that my dad says I can't have anyon come over. Now Im pissed. I called him and asked him why and he just said "because I said so." WHAT THE FUCK! What is the big fucking deal?! Are you serious?! I hate this. I am doing good in school, its spring break for cryin out loud and this is crap. I have done work around the house and this is crap. I finally have someone who wants to spend time with me - and someone who cares about me and I "see them to much"
Good greif. I hate this crap. Now that I'm pissed beond belief, there is a call i have to make and i'm going to go clean and go for a walk.
..XoXo..
Melissa