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i feek like i have a problem, but one thats hard to fix.
I feel like i cant ever eat anything wtihout ever feeling guilty about it.
i just ate ice cream with cake and now i feel like i ate too much of a good thing.
i feel like my ass will get bigger and bigger with all of the bad stuff i eat.
i dont so much as worry about my stomach, but its always about my butt.
everyone always tells me i have a big butt, or that im going to get fatter when im older.
and quite frankly, that kinda scares me.
i need to eat though because of my running.
dont worry i wont be anorexic or something. i like food dont get me wrong, but why are so many
things so fattening? it kinda grosses me out.
i just want to go through life right now not worrying so much about the way i eat or how i feel about my body.
i dont like being uncomfortable in my own skin.
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the thing is, today jorge wanted to go eat pizza, but i didnt want to because of all the bread in pizza
and im worried it'll make my but bigger or something. so in the end i told him if we go im going to eat a salad and a bowl of cavatini and thats it. he said ok, and thats what i ate.
i still feel like i ate a trillion things even if i did just eat that for the day. (and well that bowl of ice cream with cake :)).
i just want it all to go away.
I feel like i cant ever eat anything wtihout ever feeling guilty about it.
i just ate ice cream with cake and now i feel like i ate too much of a good thing.
i feel like my ass will get bigger and bigger with all of the bad stuff i eat.
i dont so much as worry about my stomach, but its always about my butt.
everyone always tells me i have a big butt, or that im going to get fatter when im older.
and quite frankly, that kinda scares me.
i need to eat though because of my running.
dont worry i wont be anorexic or something. i like food dont get me wrong, but why are so many
things so fattening? it kinda grosses me out.
i just want to go through life right now not worrying so much about the way i eat or how i feel about my body.
i dont like being uncomfortable in my own skin.
---
the thing is, today jorge wanted to go eat pizza, but i didnt want to because of all the bread in pizza
and im worried it'll make my but bigger or something. so in the end i told him if we go im going to eat a salad and a bowl of cavatini and thats it. he said ok, and thats what i ate.
i still feel like i ate a trillion things even if i did just eat that for the day. (and well that bowl of ice cream with cake :)).
i just want it all to go away.