Oneshot: If Only
If Only
Onew/Key ; PG013
*Character death + rape
Min Ho ah…is it possible to…” Lee Jin Ki started, voice trailing, his thoughts running like wild mad, making him cautious of his words.“Possible to do what, hyung?” Min Ho answered back, voice low and gentle.
The two sat on frigid concrete, fresh snow slowly piling around them as their backs rested against a run down brick building in the midst of a winter night in Seoul. Dawn was surely creeping, but no sign of tiredness or feeling of the gusts of wind that swept through their clothing caught their attention. They just kept themselves seated as they stared off to space, words just coming with whatever could be spoken.
“That Key could be very well still be…” He felt tears forming around his forced awakened eyes, yet his own expression laid dull and expressionless.
“Alive?” The younger boy turned his head at his hyung and his eyes gazing with a distraction, knowing that pure eye contact was the worst idea.
“He can’t be. Not ever.”
“Hyung--”
“If only I didn’t argue with him that day. If only I didn’t let him go. Why can I only say ‘if’ when I could have fucking done something,” Onew balled his hands into a tight fist, his nails digging into his palm. Deeper and deeper they sank. “He didn’t have to go. Not ever.” Letting him go was a different story than what had happened in the future on that exact date.
“We all could have watched out for him. You don’t need to blame yourself.” Min Ho felt the combination of feelings that his hyung held. If only on that day they all could have done something to prevent the worse from happening.
“He called us that day though. For help. Yet, I was so fucking stupid to believe that he was puling a God damned trick just to get back at me,”
“…”
“No one deserves to die like that. Not by the dirty touch of an asshole, not by any means.”
“What could we have done to prevent Key from getting raped that day, hyung?”
Onew fell silent. He couldn’t answer that. “I don’t know.”
Onew/Key ; PG013
*Character death + rape
Min Ho ah…is it possible to…” Lee Jin Ki started, voice trailing, his thoughts running like wild mad, making him cautious of his words.“Possible to do what, hyung?” Min Ho answered back, voice low and gentle.
The two sat on frigid concrete, fresh snow slowly piling around them as their backs rested against a run down brick building in the midst of a winter night in Seoul. Dawn was surely creeping, but no sign of tiredness or feeling of the gusts of wind that swept through their clothing caught their attention. They just kept themselves seated as they stared off to space, words just coming with whatever could be spoken.
“That Key could be very well still be…” He felt tears forming around his forced awakened eyes, yet his own expression laid dull and expressionless.
“Alive?” The younger boy turned his head at his hyung and his eyes gazing with a distraction, knowing that pure eye contact was the worst idea.
“He can’t be. Not ever.”
“Hyung--”
“If only I didn’t argue with him that day. If only I didn’t let him go. Why can I only say ‘if’ when I could have fucking done something,” Onew balled his hands into a tight fist, his nails digging into his palm. Deeper and deeper they sank. “He didn’t have to go. Not ever.” Letting him go was a different story than what had happened in the future on that exact date.
“We all could have watched out for him. You don’t need to blame yourself.” Min Ho felt the combination of feelings that his hyung held. If only on that day they all could have done something to prevent the worse from happening.
“He called us that day though. For help. Yet, I was so fucking stupid to believe that he was puling a God damned trick just to get back at me,”
“…”
“No one deserves to die like that. Not by the dirty touch of an asshole, not by any means.”
“What could we have done to prevent Key from getting raped that day, hyung?”
Onew fell silent. He couldn’t answer that. “I don’t know.”