I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
so yea
My Grandmother died yesterday. At 9:10am.
She was probably the last person I even begun to prepare myself for. My mother always told me that when she died, my Grandmother would be standing next to me. While logically I knew that wouldn't be true, its one of the many things I cant stop thinking about.
I wish I went to go see her last week like I was supposed too. I decided not too because, like the asshole I am, I didn't really feel like it. You really don't know what you have, until its gone.
I don't think I've ever felt the way I felt, when I sat and watched her die. And honestly, despite how I felt, it doesn't seem real at all.
I got some clothes for the wake and funeral, and I got something that I would like her to be buried with. Its a prayer box, and I'm going to put a prayer she liked inside. I think she'd appreciate that.
My Grandmother died yesterday. At 9:10am.
She was probably the last person I even begun to prepare myself for. My mother always told me that when she died, my Grandmother would be standing next to me. While logically I knew that wouldn't be true, its one of the many things I cant stop thinking about.
I wish I went to go see her last week like I was supposed too. I decided not too because, like the asshole I am, I didn't really feel like it. You really don't know what you have, until its gone.
I don't think I've ever felt the way I felt, when I sat and watched her die. And honestly, despite how I felt, it doesn't seem real at all.
I got some clothes for the wake and funeral, and I got something that I would like her to be buried with. Its a prayer box, and I'm going to put a prayer she liked inside. I think she'd appreciate that.