We Watched Her Drink Her Pain Away, A Little At A Time.
Hey,
God, I fucking hate everything. I came home from school yesterday, and everything went to fucking hell. I don\'t even know what really happened.
Supposedly, I failed my drug test. The only thing that was in my system was marijuana. Well, again supposedly, Sierra told her mom and my \"cocaine expierience\". Yea, well... shit went all down hill. My parents raided my room and took EVERYTHING away. They grounded me indefinitely, took away everything I had that I kept precious to me, and Alex isn\'t allowed anywhere NEAR me. I have to go to a doctor soon and get \"checked out\" because my parents think I\'m pregnant. I don\'t know how I could fucking be pregnant if I\'m a FUCKING virgin. I have to go to rehab, and I have to see a therapist and they are going to treat me for being suicidal, a druggie, and anorexia. None of it is true. I\'m not a druggie(anymore), I\'m NOT suicidal and I\'m not even fucking skinny. What the hell?
Okay, yes... I have done cocaine. I\'ll admit that. I smoke weed, I\'ll admit that too. I stopped though. I don\'t understand how everything can fucking fall apart, even when I cleaned up. The school even told my mom that I had been skipping, coming in late and I checked out before 5th hour 7 times. Definitely NOT true. I checked out ONCE this year, and my MOM came and GOT me because I was SICK. The school is fucking lying, my mom even fucking lied to me. I KNOW she used to do cocaine... I KNOW. She ALWAYS denied any drug habbit, but I always knew. I heard her talking about it with one of her friends, my sister said she SAW her do coke... so, come on, why should she care if I tried it? Big whoop, I tried it. Just fucking kill me. I quit. I wasn\'t hooked. I didn\'t do it a lot. Alex didn\'t even MAKE me... I fucked up. He fucked up. We all know this now. But, I love him, and they know that. They fucking know they took away the best thing in my life. They called his mom, and told her everything too. He is in deep trouble too, and he\'s going to rehab now. My parents even fucking called the Harrison Co. police department to tell them about him so they can be \"watching\" him. FUCK ALL OF THIS.
Alex: I\'m sorry. You have NOTHING to be sorry about. I never ratted you out once. I wouldn\'t rat anyone out over this shit. It was all Sierra. No one knows about Jessie and Zach, so please don\'t involve them. I can\'t believe all of this happened. It wasn\'t right, and it\'s horrible. I love you, and I\'m sorry. I really am sorry. You are still everything I want, and even though you were still taken away, I still love you. I always will, and I hope one day something GOOD will happen for us. I\'ll keep thinking of you too, and I won\'t even let you go. I love you babe.
-Andrea
God, I fucking hate everything. I came home from school yesterday, and everything went to fucking hell. I don\'t even know what really happened.
Supposedly, I failed my drug test. The only thing that was in my system was marijuana. Well, again supposedly, Sierra told her mom and my \"cocaine expierience\". Yea, well... shit went all down hill. My parents raided my room and took EVERYTHING away. They grounded me indefinitely, took away everything I had that I kept precious to me, and Alex isn\'t allowed anywhere NEAR me. I have to go to a doctor soon and get \"checked out\" because my parents think I\'m pregnant. I don\'t know how I could fucking be pregnant if I\'m a FUCKING virgin. I have to go to rehab, and I have to see a therapist and they are going to treat me for being suicidal, a druggie, and anorexia. None of it is true. I\'m not a druggie(anymore), I\'m NOT suicidal and I\'m not even fucking skinny. What the hell?
Okay, yes... I have done cocaine. I\'ll admit that. I smoke weed, I\'ll admit that too. I stopped though. I don\'t understand how everything can fucking fall apart, even when I cleaned up. The school even told my mom that I had been skipping, coming in late and I checked out before 5th hour 7 times. Definitely NOT true. I checked out ONCE this year, and my MOM came and GOT me because I was SICK. The school is fucking lying, my mom even fucking lied to me. I KNOW she used to do cocaine... I KNOW. She ALWAYS denied any drug habbit, but I always knew. I heard her talking about it with one of her friends, my sister said she SAW her do coke... so, come on, why should she care if I tried it? Big whoop, I tried it. Just fucking kill me. I quit. I wasn\'t hooked. I didn\'t do it a lot. Alex didn\'t even MAKE me... I fucked up. He fucked up. We all know this now. But, I love him, and they know that. They fucking know they took away the best thing in my life. They called his mom, and told her everything too. He is in deep trouble too, and he\'s going to rehab now. My parents even fucking called the Harrison Co. police department to tell them about him so they can be \"watching\" him. FUCK ALL OF THIS.
Alex: I\'m sorry. You have NOTHING to be sorry about. I never ratted you out once. I wouldn\'t rat anyone out over this shit. It was all Sierra. No one knows about Jessie and Zach, so please don\'t involve them. I can\'t believe all of this happened. It wasn\'t right, and it\'s horrible. I love you, and I\'m sorry. I really am sorry. You are still everything I want, and even though you were still taken away, I still love you. I always will, and I hope one day something GOOD will happen for us. I\'ll keep thinking of you too, and I won\'t even let you go. I love you babe.
-Andrea