I'd Rather Feel Pain Than Nothing At All
x-hey-x
Well, I think I finally reached my breaking point with some things. I really messed up this time. And, it scared me to death. I don't know what I was thinking, but at the time I didn't know the outcome of my decision.
So, I skipped school Tuesday and Wednesday. Not a big deal, that's not my problem. Well, actually, if I miss one more day I get to be on PROBATION! woohoo! Anyways, that's beside my point. I really fucked up yesterday.
Let's see... around noon yesterday, I took 1500 mg of something or other, and I thought it was a good idea. Well, nothing really happened. I got kinda sick for the whole day, so I didn't think it was a big deal. Then 5:00 rolls around. I'm bored, and I have a bottle of cough syrup. Ya know what, I drank it. I fucking drank it. I don't know what I was thinking. That was probably the single worst idea of my life(one of them). I passed out at 6:30, woke up at 7:30 in a daze. I didn't know what the hell was going on. Alex came over. All I really know was that I was in a whole new state of pain and sickness.
I spent the following 5 hours throwing up, feeling HORRIBLE and wanting to die. After I threw everything up that was in my stomach, I began to "dry heave". That's not good. Then, I began to taste a "metallic" flavor in my mouth. I touched the back of my throat and got some blood. Then, began to throw up more, therefore I was throwing up blood. NOT THE SMARTEST FUCKING THING EVER.
Then, I woke up this morning and feel fine.
What I learned:
*STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM SHIT YOU DON'T KNOW ABOUT.
*DON'T DRINK COUGH SYRUP.
*STAY THE -FUCK- AWAY FROM DEXTROMETHORPHAN! Actually, just don't abuse it like I've been doing the past couple months. It's HIGHLY dangerous shit, and it's NOT worth your life for a 6-12 hour high.
I'm staying away from Triple C's(since they contain high doses of dextromethorphan), and I quit with the weird shit. I'll stay strictly with marijuana and alcohol. Thank you.
I hope someone reads this.
AND DONT WORRY, I LEARNED MY LESSON, SO PLEASE NO NEGATIVE FEEDBACK.
Much love... and stay safe!
-Andrea
Well, I think I finally reached my breaking point with some things. I really messed up this time. And, it scared me to death. I don't know what I was thinking, but at the time I didn't know the outcome of my decision.
So, I skipped school Tuesday and Wednesday. Not a big deal, that's not my problem. Well, actually, if I miss one more day I get to be on PROBATION! woohoo! Anyways, that's beside my point. I really fucked up yesterday.
Let's see... around noon yesterday, I took 1500 mg of something or other, and I thought it was a good idea. Well, nothing really happened. I got kinda sick for the whole day, so I didn't think it was a big deal. Then 5:00 rolls around. I'm bored, and I have a bottle of cough syrup. Ya know what, I drank it. I fucking drank it. I don't know what I was thinking. That was probably the single worst idea of my life(one of them). I passed out at 6:30, woke up at 7:30 in a daze. I didn't know what the hell was going on. Alex came over. All I really know was that I was in a whole new state of pain and sickness.
I spent the following 5 hours throwing up, feeling HORRIBLE and wanting to die. After I threw everything up that was in my stomach, I began to "dry heave". That's not good. Then, I began to taste a "metallic" flavor in my mouth. I touched the back of my throat and got some blood. Then, began to throw up more, therefore I was throwing up blood. NOT THE SMARTEST FUCKING THING EVER.
Then, I woke up this morning and feel fine.
What I learned:
*STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM SHIT YOU DON'T KNOW ABOUT.
*DON'T DRINK COUGH SYRUP.
*STAY THE -FUCK- AWAY FROM DEXTROMETHORPHAN! Actually, just don't abuse it like I've been doing the past couple months. It's HIGHLY dangerous shit, and it's NOT worth your life for a 6-12 hour high.
I'm staying away from Triple C's(since they contain high doses of dextromethorphan), and I quit with the weird shit. I'll stay strictly with marijuana and alcohol. Thank you.
I hope someone reads this.
AND DONT WORRY, I LEARNED MY LESSON, SO PLEASE NO NEGATIVE FEEDBACK.
Much love... and stay safe!
-Andrea