When You Finally Trust Me, Finally Believe In Me, I Will Let You Down
Hello...
It's been almost a dick year since my last update. I really don't know what to say. Livejournal has really changed since the last time I was here, everything is different and I almost got lost when I tried to find where to post an entry.
Well, a lot of things have changed. I don't know if they were for better or worse, but I guess all good things must come in the end. Most likely, everything I've done is for the worst. Go figure.
About Alex... we'll I've been with him for a month now. He's pretty great. His 19th Birthday was Tuesday. Pretty cool. Indeed, I like him a lot. But, I can only see him on weekends. And usually, I don't remember much of that weekend. Speaking of that...
I've been getting into some really bad things this past month. I don't even think I'm a person anymore. I don't know. Everything seems fake. Like, nothing is real in this world. I always feel like I'm watching myself from some other body, and what I'm watching is well, fake. I don't know. I can't describe it anymore. And, I really hate that feeling. I fucking hate drugs. I don't even know why I do what I do. So what, life is too short, so fuck it. It's not like anything else is good.
It's not even just the weed. I've been smoking pot for years... but I've been on coke twice now(which isn't that bad... I mean, I turn it down all the time). The really bad thing though is the pills. I'm addicted to something called Triple C's. I can't stand them. I really fucking hate them. But, I love the high. It's so intense and it lasts for like 6 hours. It's an insane high. But, they put me in a state of mind that's not great. To tell you the truth, I'm on them now. Even though I only took 2, I have a pretty good buzz going on. It's probably because I took 13 yesterday, and they are still in my system, so the 2 are just kind of blending in.
I don't know. See what I mean? I'm on these fucking pills and I have so much to say. I just can't seem to stop typing. Everything is so clear to me. I fucking hate all of it.
Tomorrow... is Friday? Damn, this week has gone by fast. Anyways, I'm going to see Godsmack/Breaking Bejamin/Candlebox tomorrow. I really really really can't wait. My sister bought me VIP tickets. HELL YES. It's gonna kick ass.
Then Saturday, Alex is having a HUGE party at his house. ANYONE can come... we are looking at around 300 people coming. We may even have 2 bands playing there... Evil Engine #9 and Asleep. They are playing at the Eagles Lodge, and I know for a fact EE9 is coming after their show, and they are gonna try to talk the guys from Asleep into coming. Pretty sweet ass.
So, if you want to come, give me a call... all ages, all alcohol, bring drugs, whatever, just don't do drugs around the house. The party is in Corydon. Call me-(812)969-2462
It will be good times, I promise.
We'll I'm outta here.
Trust me, I'll be there when you need me...
... Andrea
PS* My grades are GREAT. I have 3 A's, 1 B, 2 C's and 1 F. Not bad. Actually, for me, pretty DAMN good. *grin*
It's been almost a dick year since my last update. I really don't know what to say. Livejournal has really changed since the last time I was here, everything is different and I almost got lost when I tried to find where to post an entry.
Well, a lot of things have changed. I don't know if they were for better or worse, but I guess all good things must come in the end. Most likely, everything I've done is for the worst. Go figure.
About Alex... we'll I've been with him for a month now. He's pretty great. His 19th Birthday was Tuesday. Pretty cool. Indeed, I like him a lot. But, I can only see him on weekends. And usually, I don't remember much of that weekend. Speaking of that...
I've been getting into some really bad things this past month. I don't even think I'm a person anymore. I don't know. Everything seems fake. Like, nothing is real in this world. I always feel like I'm watching myself from some other body, and what I'm watching is well, fake. I don't know. I can't describe it anymore. And, I really hate that feeling. I fucking hate drugs. I don't even know why I do what I do. So what, life is too short, so fuck it. It's not like anything else is good.
It's not even just the weed. I've been smoking pot for years... but I've been on coke twice now(which isn't that bad... I mean, I turn it down all the time). The really bad thing though is the pills. I'm addicted to something called Triple C's. I can't stand them. I really fucking hate them. But, I love the high. It's so intense and it lasts for like 6 hours. It's an insane high. But, they put me in a state of mind that's not great. To tell you the truth, I'm on them now. Even though I only took 2, I have a pretty good buzz going on. It's probably because I took 13 yesterday, and they are still in my system, so the 2 are just kind of blending in.
I don't know. See what I mean? I'm on these fucking pills and I have so much to say. I just can't seem to stop typing. Everything is so clear to me. I fucking hate all of it.
Tomorrow... is Friday? Damn, this week has gone by fast. Anyways, I'm going to see Godsmack/Breaking Bejamin/Candlebox tomorrow. I really really really can't wait. My sister bought me VIP tickets. HELL YES. It's gonna kick ass.
Then Saturday, Alex is having a HUGE party at his house. ANYONE can come... we are looking at around 300 people coming. We may even have 2 bands playing there... Evil Engine #9 and Asleep. They are playing at the Eagles Lodge, and I know for a fact EE9 is coming after their show, and they are gonna try to talk the guys from Asleep into coming. Pretty sweet ass.
So, if you want to come, give me a call... all ages, all alcohol, bring drugs, whatever, just don't do drugs around the house. The party is in Corydon. Call me-(812)969-2462
It will be good times, I promise.
We'll I'm outta here.
Trust me, I'll be there when you need me...
... Andrea
PS* My grades are GREAT. I have 3 A's, 1 B, 2 C's and 1 F. Not bad. Actually, for me, pretty DAMN good. *grin*