I'm trying to be good..
and you know not hate everyone for everything wrong with my life at the moment
and that has been wrong with it for a while, sort of annoyed that just when i thought it was getting better it sort of crashed down around me, dont you hate it when that happens>
and there's always worse right?
atleast my parents let me live with themXD and atleast he didnt kill me
though i feel like killing him
and her
and her
i wont say any names
but i think im doing pretty well, considering i come from a long line of people with anger issues:D
ive always considered myself a very patient and forgiving person, guess I'll find out if i am
*breathes deeply* goals in life, i have goals:D i shall focus on them and not break stuff
actually i dont have any goals at the moment>_< feel a little lost and confused
dont wanna do the goals i had cause their connected to too many bad memories
i dont know=/ no point in going to college cause the only reason i was going to go was to get enough money to support my famliy and start a chairty and help ppl out
but i dont want to anymore
hmm...
so here i am before school starts, guess the sub forgot to lock the door?XD works to my advantage, not sure why i decided to try the door anyway though odd..
umm..god i feel awful>_< like when your trying to quit a really addictive drug, only im sad and hysterical and moody
anyway was looking through the magazine and saw an add for cervical cancer awareness and they listed the symptoms and ive had all of them>_< the bleeding only happened once but still...
been meaning to tell mommy but the pains usually not there when shes around and its hard to describe it, ill deal with it after midterms i guess i cant be bothered with anything now
and midterms are the week after next week, nto next week:D thank goodness>_< thought i was going to pass out when james was like no they're next week
taht was pretty mean though...
so i have two weeks to get my grades up eh i can do it
tiana was like do you want me to tutor you? and i was like arent you failing spanish too? yes she is:P
friend drew me the cutest prettiest sign, it has i love sneha on it and he made it all pretty, awe made my day, i put it in my spanish binder
*yawns* umm...what else? oh right i was going to put a convo
i have a week to read lord of the ringsXD i overjudged my reading ability, its slipped a bit cause i havent read in a while
actually less then a week i have all of this weekend i guess
anyway the convo
i dont know how to spell his name so im going to make it up
gion: guys! stop talking get in line *his phone rings this realyl weird alien ring tone*
katie: wow your pants are acting funky
gion: *blushes and puts his rifle in front of his crotch* its not my fault
katie: what are you talking about?
gion: my pants were just like that when i got up
kelley: huh?
gion: well they just wouldnt zip guys
and then after a bit we got it and couldnt stop laughingXD it was so cute, he was all blushing and shy the rest of the practice and kept putting the rifle in front of his cortch funny...we were talking about the cell phone ring
he hasnt showed up to coach us since, poor guy
well its funnier if your there:P
mm..what else? oh yea life sucks>_<
geeze
^^^^^ the second part of that was the entry i tried to post this morning but accedently posted in something else^^^
and that has been wrong with it for a while, sort of annoyed that just when i thought it was getting better it sort of crashed down around me, dont you hate it when that happens>
and there's always worse right?
atleast my parents let me live with themXD and atleast he didnt kill me
though i feel like killing him
and her
and her
i wont say any names
but i think im doing pretty well, considering i come from a long line of people with anger issues:D
ive always considered myself a very patient and forgiving person, guess I'll find out if i am
*breathes deeply* goals in life, i have goals:D i shall focus on them and not break stuff
actually i dont have any goals at the moment>_< feel a little lost and confused
dont wanna do the goals i had cause their connected to too many bad memories
i dont know=/ no point in going to college cause the only reason i was going to go was to get enough money to support my famliy and start a chairty and help ppl out
but i dont want to anymore
hmm...
so here i am before school starts, guess the sub forgot to lock the door?XD works to my advantage, not sure why i decided to try the door anyway though odd..
umm..god i feel awful>_< like when your trying to quit a really addictive drug, only im sad and hysterical and moody
anyway was looking through the magazine and saw an add for cervical cancer awareness and they listed the symptoms and ive had all of them>_< the bleeding only happened once but still...
been meaning to tell mommy but the pains usually not there when shes around and its hard to describe it, ill deal with it after midterms i guess i cant be bothered with anything now
and midterms are the week after next week, nto next week:D thank goodness>_< thought i was going to pass out when james was like no they're next week
taht was pretty mean though...
so i have two weeks to get my grades up eh i can do it
tiana was like do you want me to tutor you? and i was like arent you failing spanish too? yes she is:P
friend drew me the cutest prettiest sign, it has i love sneha on it and he made it all pretty, awe made my day, i put it in my spanish binder
*yawns* umm...what else? oh right i was going to put a convo
i have a week to read lord of the ringsXD i overjudged my reading ability, its slipped a bit cause i havent read in a while
actually less then a week i have all of this weekend i guess
anyway the convo
i dont know how to spell his name so im going to make it up
gion: guys! stop talking get in line *his phone rings this realyl weird alien ring tone*
katie: wow your pants are acting funky
gion: *blushes and puts his rifle in front of his crotch* its not my fault
katie: what are you talking about?
gion: my pants were just like that when i got up
kelley: huh?
gion: well they just wouldnt zip guys
and then after a bit we got it and couldnt stop laughingXD it was so cute, he was all blushing and shy the rest of the practice and kept putting the rifle in front of his cortch funny...we were talking about the cell phone ring
he hasnt showed up to coach us since, poor guy
well its funnier if your there:P
mm..what else? oh yea life sucks>_<
geeze
^^^^^ the second part of that was the entry i tried to post this morning but accedently posted in something else^^^