I had a great talk. I'm glad I did
Thank you soooo much Erika. I am posting this up here for my own good so i can remember someone STILL cares for me...
Cody021083: alright, back
JAGstargazer: feeling a little better
Cody021083: not really
Cody021083: but thanks for talking to me before
JAGstargazer: ur welcome
Cody021083: I really appreciated it
JAGstargazer: i still believe you
Cody021083: believe what?
JAGstargazer: in you*
Cody021083: ohh
Cody021083: really?
JAGstargazer: yes
Cody021083: Do you think I can get my life back?
JAGstargazer: yes
Cody021083: I am surprised you are not mad at me
Cody021083: most of jessica's friends are pissed at me
JAGstargazer: oh i am mad at you for what you said..more dissappointed.. but i still believe that u can make things right again
Cody021083: I hope I can
JAGstargazer: look at your life as a whole.. was the argument you 2 got into worht it... that important
Cody021083: I think what happened is I have known her forever.. you just get sick of each other and get mad.. but I don't think it should be the end of the world you know?
Cody021083: I have known Jessica longer than Marissa
JAGstargazer: i know..
JAGstargazer: but what u said hurt her
Cody021083: I used to like her
JAGstargazer: u have been her friend a long time
JAGstargazer: y did u stop?
Cody021083: Well i used to like her like as her being my g/f
JAGstargazer: that is not surprising
Cody021083: haha what do you mean?
JAGstargazer: u have feelings for her.. u both have known each other for so long.. not sdhocking that would corss ur mind or you feel that way
Cody021083: yeah :-)
Cody021083: I guess not
Cody021083: She said no though
Cody021083: I asked her out a long time ago
Cody021083: she said no, but she hooked marissa and i up instead
JAGstargazer: yeah.. she might have value ur firendsip to much to go pas that
JAGstargazer: valued*
Cody021083: that's what I thought
Cody021083: I wasn't mad at her
Cody021083: for that
Cody021083: not at all
Cody021083: I mean she did help hook me up with one of her friends
JAGstargazer: yes..
Cody021083: I wish it worked out, but I guess that's life
JAGstargazer: that is tru
JAGstargazer: you think u could ever apologize to jessica
JAGstargazer: ?
Cody021083: I probably can, but right now I think is a bad time
Cody021083: But I'll definitely look into it
JAGstargazer: yes.. to be happy you need to put things to rest.. make a clear path..
JAGstargazer: work on repairing your friendships
JAGstargazer: if marissa has moved on then, as hard as this seems, let her go.. i know u wnat nothing but her happiness
Cody021083: definitely
JAGstargazer: u still want to be a father?
Cody021083: yes
JAGstargazer: that set ur sight on that...
JAGstargazer: getting better and becoming a the better old cody
JAGstargazer: for the chance of having children
Cody021083: well I need a girl first
Cody021083: haha
JAGstargazer: lol
JAGstargazer: unless ur going to carry them for nine months
JAGstargazer: :-P
Cody021083: :laughs:
Cody021083: How do I do that? :-P
JAGstargazer: i get ya one of those body suits ..lol
Cody021083: haha
JAGstargazer: reshaping ur self...no more ur soul ..will lead you to girl..woman..who will love you
JAGstargazer: but u must love and be happy with ur self first..before asking some one to love you
Cody021083: awe
Cody021083: you are great
JAGstargazer: thanks
Cody021083: :hugs you:
Cody021083: thank you
Cody021083: :-)
JAGstargazer: ur welcome :hugs you back:
JAGstargazer: i am not going to lie to you and say it ill be easy... but you can do it
Cody021083: :-)
Cody021083: I bet it will be a little difficult
JAGstargazer: yes
Cody021083: i am willing to try it
Cody021083: I think I need to move on anyways
JAGstargazer: true..
JAGstargazer: here the deal.. i will help u out on the condition that you.. do atleast apologize to jessica and make an effort to mend the fence
Cody021083: how?
JAGstargazer: i am dont have some grand plan..but try this ... try to do something positive every day...
JAGstargazer: paying some one a compliment, doing something for antohter person
JAGstargazer: , etc.
Cody021083: how do I do that while being stuck in this stupid hospital?
Cody021083: It kind of puts you in a bad mood
JAGstargazer: the nurses.. the other patients
Cody021083: alright
Cody021083: that works
JAGstargazer: every day e-mail me about what your thoughts are for the day...concerns.. doubts.. positive thing you did that day
Cody021083: awe okay :-)
JAGstargazer: u have to put the work into changing ur life.. but i will try to support hte best i can
JAGstargazer: youthe*
JAGstargazer: you the*
Cody021083: thank you so much!
Cody021083: :-D
JAGstargazer: this is you here:
JAGstargazer: There's a ship out
On the ocean
At the mercy of the sea
It's been tossed about
Lost and broken
Wandering aimlessly
And God somehow
You know that ship is me
'Cause there's a lighthouse
In the harbour
Shining faithfully
Pouring its light out
Across the water
For this sinking soul to see
That someone out there
Still believes in me
JAGstargazer: THIS IS ME: That someone out there
Still believes in me
Cody021083: awe
JAGstargazer: Here it is the other part for you: On a prayer, in a song
I hear your voice and
It keeps me hanging on
Raining down
Against the wind
I'm reaching out till
We reach the circle's end
When you come
Back to me again
Cody021083: awe thank you so much Erika!
Cody021083: :-D
Cody021083: I have to get going
Cody021083: Will you be on later tonight?
JAGstargazer: yes i will be .. if i am away give me a message ... i probably be close by..
Cody021083: alright, definitely.. thanks again. I am glad I have a friend like you. Take care hun
JAGstargazer: u 2
JAGstargazer: rest and think on what i said
Cody021083: I will :-)
JAGstargazer: O:-)
Cody021083: alright, back
JAGstargazer: feeling a little better
Cody021083: not really
Cody021083: but thanks for talking to me before
JAGstargazer: ur welcome
Cody021083: I really appreciated it
JAGstargazer: i still believe you
Cody021083: believe what?
JAGstargazer: in you*
Cody021083: ohh
Cody021083: really?
JAGstargazer: yes
Cody021083: Do you think I can get my life back?
JAGstargazer: yes
Cody021083: I am surprised you are not mad at me
Cody021083: most of jessica's friends are pissed at me
JAGstargazer: oh i am mad at you for what you said..more dissappointed.. but i still believe that u can make things right again
Cody021083: I hope I can
JAGstargazer: look at your life as a whole.. was the argument you 2 got into worht it... that important
Cody021083: I think what happened is I have known her forever.. you just get sick of each other and get mad.. but I don't think it should be the end of the world you know?
Cody021083: I have known Jessica longer than Marissa
JAGstargazer: i know..
JAGstargazer: but what u said hurt her
Cody021083: I used to like her
JAGstargazer: u have been her friend a long time
JAGstargazer: y did u stop?
Cody021083: Well i used to like her like as her being my g/f
JAGstargazer: that is not surprising
Cody021083: haha what do you mean?
JAGstargazer: u have feelings for her.. u both have known each other for so long.. not sdhocking that would corss ur mind or you feel that way
Cody021083: yeah :-)
Cody021083: I guess not
Cody021083: She said no though
Cody021083: I asked her out a long time ago
Cody021083: she said no, but she hooked marissa and i up instead
JAGstargazer: yeah.. she might have value ur firendsip to much to go pas that
JAGstargazer: valued*
Cody021083: that's what I thought
Cody021083: I wasn't mad at her
Cody021083: for that
Cody021083: not at all
Cody021083: I mean she did help hook me up with one of her friends
JAGstargazer: yes..
Cody021083: I wish it worked out, but I guess that's life
JAGstargazer: that is tru
JAGstargazer: you think u could ever apologize to jessica
JAGstargazer: ?
Cody021083: I probably can, but right now I think is a bad time
Cody021083: But I'll definitely look into it
JAGstargazer: yes.. to be happy you need to put things to rest.. make a clear path..
JAGstargazer: work on repairing your friendships
JAGstargazer: if marissa has moved on then, as hard as this seems, let her go.. i know u wnat nothing but her happiness
Cody021083: definitely
JAGstargazer: u still want to be a father?
Cody021083: yes
JAGstargazer: that set ur sight on that...
JAGstargazer: getting better and becoming a the better old cody
JAGstargazer: for the chance of having children
Cody021083: well I need a girl first
Cody021083: haha
JAGstargazer: lol
JAGstargazer: unless ur going to carry them for nine months
JAGstargazer: :-P
Cody021083: :laughs:
Cody021083: How do I do that? :-P
JAGstargazer: i get ya one of those body suits ..lol
Cody021083: haha
JAGstargazer: reshaping ur self...no more ur soul ..will lead you to girl..woman..who will love you
JAGstargazer: but u must love and be happy with ur self first..before asking some one to love you
Cody021083: awe
Cody021083: you are great
JAGstargazer: thanks
Cody021083: :hugs you:
Cody021083: thank you
Cody021083: :-)
JAGstargazer: ur welcome :hugs you back:
JAGstargazer: i am not going to lie to you and say it ill be easy... but you can do it
Cody021083: :-)
Cody021083: I bet it will be a little difficult
JAGstargazer: yes
Cody021083: i am willing to try it
Cody021083: I think I need to move on anyways
JAGstargazer: true..
JAGstargazer: here the deal.. i will help u out on the condition that you.. do atleast apologize to jessica and make an effort to mend the fence
Cody021083: how?
JAGstargazer: i am dont have some grand plan..but try this ... try to do something positive every day...
JAGstargazer: paying some one a compliment, doing something for antohter person
JAGstargazer: , etc.
Cody021083: how do I do that while being stuck in this stupid hospital?
Cody021083: It kind of puts you in a bad mood
JAGstargazer: the nurses.. the other patients
Cody021083: alright
Cody021083: that works
JAGstargazer: every day e-mail me about what your thoughts are for the day...concerns.. doubts.. positive thing you did that day
Cody021083: awe okay :-)
JAGstargazer: u have to put the work into changing ur life.. but i will try to support hte best i can
JAGstargazer: youthe*
JAGstargazer: you the*
Cody021083: thank you so much!
Cody021083: :-D
JAGstargazer: this is you here:
JAGstargazer: There's a ship out
On the ocean
At the mercy of the sea
It's been tossed about
Lost and broken
Wandering aimlessly
And God somehow
You know that ship is me
'Cause there's a lighthouse
In the harbour
Shining faithfully
Pouring its light out
Across the water
For this sinking soul to see
That someone out there
Still believes in me
JAGstargazer: THIS IS ME: That someone out there
Still believes in me
Cody021083: awe
JAGstargazer: Here it is the other part for you: On a prayer, in a song
I hear your voice and
It keeps me hanging on
Raining down
Against the wind
I'm reaching out till
We reach the circle's end
When you come
Back to me again
Cody021083: awe thank you so much Erika!
Cody021083: :-D
Cody021083: I have to get going
Cody021083: Will you be on later tonight?
JAGstargazer: yes i will be .. if i am away give me a message ... i probably be close by..
Cody021083: alright, definitely.. thanks again. I am glad I have a friend like you. Take care hun
JAGstargazer: u 2
JAGstargazer: rest and think on what i said
Cody021083: I will :-)
JAGstargazer: O:-)