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this was too long to make into a comment so i might as well get yours and terris done in one entry
*stef*
about the cigarettes... they are gross... and im not really a smoker... i know theyre still considered cigarettes, but im not addicted... i do it because the relax me... yeah its gross but i dont think that makes me a hippocrit... the way i said it before was jokingly, even though it is bad for you... i never went around trying to get people to quit and hating people cuz they did it... people smoked... theres not much i can do about it...
and dont even start about me cuttiing myself... i dont know if you noticed but the recent ones were the first ones ive done in a LONG time... like im talking months... and i know damn well i did not show them off to anyone... i tried to hide them... i dont want people seeing them... krystal shows hers off more than i do... so dont even try to say anything about me showing off that im a cutter.... the only reason i said those things about velcro was because i didnt want mr smith or other people to know i was doing it myself... then they would think im crazy or something... i know my close friends wont believe it, but they already know i do it, so i dont need to beat around the bush... if they ask, i tell, but i absolutley dont show off...
if youve paid any attention to me at all in the past few months, you would have notieced i have greatly cut down on how much i talk about bobby... the only times i mention him recently is as a friend... cuz thats what he is... and ive accepted that... when you love someone and care about them as much as i did bobby, you just cant stop talking about them at once... theyre always on your mind... have i once ever complained or cried or was sad that he was engaged to kim? NO not at all... im happy that hes happy... maybe once as i was going to bed i cried over it, but i dont make it a big deal to other people... and he doesnt control my feelings anymore... he did before when we were kind of friends with benefits, but that was because i never knew where we stood relationship wise... if he might have asked me back out or something during that time, i didnt want to be with someone else... but uh havent you noticed how much i say i need a boyfriend and stuff... shouldnt that click in your brain that ive accepted that were only friends? well i think it should have... get your story srtaight before you say it.. ive never gotten depressed or hurt myself because hes happy... im HAPPY when hes happy... not depressed... havent i said this a million times before?
ive told you before to your face that i dont think you guys will be together forever... and i specifically said at the end of the paragraph that i was happy that you were happy, but those are my thoughts... if you two do work out then hey i was wrong... thats just what i think... the whole reason i told him not to go back out with you is because he complained and complained about you... it seemed to me he was unhappy with you adn i wanted him to be happy... before you two went out he said he was going to try to sleep with you then forget about it, like jessica... seeing you two together now and him being happy, makes me glad that you two went back out, but at the time, what i thought was best was you two not going back out... and its not like no ones said this to me... you said it it me about bobby and britt did too... and i love bobby just as much or more than you do adam...
and please dont try to say i yelled at you at guard... because if thats your definition of yelling, then i hate to see what you describe how i yell at my family... even krystal said that i didnt yell... i did exactly what you said you wanted me to do... you said you think its like this... so i said no, i know its like this... i didnt yell or scream... i specifically watched the way i said it because i didnt want you to think i was mad or something... so maybe you need to relook at that part...
as for the routine thing, i didnt realize that i take all the credit... im sorry for that... ill take it into consideration from now on when talking about that stuff... i honestly didnt realize i was doing it... and its not like i did it on purpose... im not a terrible person like that...
as for the changing part... its part of growing up... i cant be expected to stay the same all my life... as for the drugs and drinking, you did them too! its not like im a druggie... i only smoke pot... you said i "do drugs" and when people see that they think more than just pot... and if you havent noticed, i havent done that in a while either... please know what youre talking about before saying things like this...
if you could know half of the conversations i have with bobby, you would not have said that last few sentences... every other conversation (save one) that ive had with bobby have been ABOUT HIM... do you want to see them? i have most saved... they are all about him wanting to kill himself and me trying to comfort him and talk to him out it... i dont know what else to say about that because that last statement is comepltley absurd... the one time that i tried to talk to him about a problem i had, and he still tried to turn it around so it was about him... if you ask me THAT is selfish, not me asking him to listen to me for once in his life...
before you go making assumptions like the ones you made, please know the whole story, or at least enough of it to make sense... because from this angle you make no sense... and im not just saying that in defense of me, because as you see, i admitted when i was wrong and ill change that now... but please know what youre talking about first...
ASS U ming makes an ASS out of U not me
*terri*
first off, what does this post have anything to do about you comeing to me with stuff... i didnt spill any secrets you told me... i never have and never will... thats just not right...
and also, please remember i was not pissed that you wore bobbys hoodie... i was sad and jealous that you two went to the movies and were getting really close but i told you i wasnt mad and i wouldnt have done anything about it... it was more of an enternal conflict with me, not really concering you... im not a mean person and im not going to be mad at someone cuz shes talking with my ex b/f... thats just dumb... chose your words wisley...
i would like to know how exactly do i act childish? im the most mature one out of all of the people i know... im absolutley not immature or childish or anything of the sort...
the "one day" that you were ranting in your journal wasnt exactly one day... its been like the past few entries in your journal... and the comments you leave on peoples... and also, "im going to make it easy on people and tell them to chose her" yeah that doesnt have guilt trip written all over it
i was with bobby a year and a half ago yes... key word being WITH!!!! you were never WITH roi and youre making a big deal out of this because you liked him... you never went out with him... he barley even liked you... that in itself is very childish... i can understand if you were with him for a while, acting like this, but you never were! you and him hung out, what, 3 times?
as for the whole being immature about bobby... uh i think not... if youve paid any attenion to anything ive said or done latley, you would have noticed that ive accepted the fact that he and i are just friends... i know that and have known that from the time we stopped being friends with benefits... thats the only reason i continued to talk about him, he gave me reason to... when the guy your in love with still kisses you and stuff, but says he has a girlfriend, i think thats grounds for him being a topic of descussion... sorry if my problems arent as important as yours...
again, how did i break your trust? i havent said anything i shouldnt have... these were my thoughts about you... not things you have told me or anything like that...
as for krystal, we already talked about that... when all this shit first started, we talked about it and fixed everything between us... too bad some other people couldnt have been more mature about it... then maybe we all wouldnt be so mean and mad at each other...
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well i think that about covers it... hopefully all this shit gets dealt with soon enough because im just sick of it all...
*stef*
about the cigarettes... they are gross... and im not really a smoker... i know theyre still considered cigarettes, but im not addicted... i do it because the relax me... yeah its gross but i dont think that makes me a hippocrit... the way i said it before was jokingly, even though it is bad for you... i never went around trying to get people to quit and hating people cuz they did it... people smoked... theres not much i can do about it...
and dont even start about me cuttiing myself... i dont know if you noticed but the recent ones were the first ones ive done in a LONG time... like im talking months... and i know damn well i did not show them off to anyone... i tried to hide them... i dont want people seeing them... krystal shows hers off more than i do... so dont even try to say anything about me showing off that im a cutter.... the only reason i said those things about velcro was because i didnt want mr smith or other people to know i was doing it myself... then they would think im crazy or something... i know my close friends wont believe it, but they already know i do it, so i dont need to beat around the bush... if they ask, i tell, but i absolutley dont show off...
if youve paid any attention to me at all in the past few months, you would have notieced i have greatly cut down on how much i talk about bobby... the only times i mention him recently is as a friend... cuz thats what he is... and ive accepted that... when you love someone and care about them as much as i did bobby, you just cant stop talking about them at once... theyre always on your mind... have i once ever complained or cried or was sad that he was engaged to kim? NO not at all... im happy that hes happy... maybe once as i was going to bed i cried over it, but i dont make it a big deal to other people... and he doesnt control my feelings anymore... he did before when we were kind of friends with benefits, but that was because i never knew where we stood relationship wise... if he might have asked me back out or something during that time, i didnt want to be with someone else... but uh havent you noticed how much i say i need a boyfriend and stuff... shouldnt that click in your brain that ive accepted that were only friends? well i think it should have... get your story srtaight before you say it.. ive never gotten depressed or hurt myself because hes happy... im HAPPY when hes happy... not depressed... havent i said this a million times before?
ive told you before to your face that i dont think you guys will be together forever... and i specifically said at the end of the paragraph that i was happy that you were happy, but those are my thoughts... if you two do work out then hey i was wrong... thats just what i think... the whole reason i told him not to go back out with you is because he complained and complained about you... it seemed to me he was unhappy with you adn i wanted him to be happy... before you two went out he said he was going to try to sleep with you then forget about it, like jessica... seeing you two together now and him being happy, makes me glad that you two went back out, but at the time, what i thought was best was you two not going back out... and its not like no ones said this to me... you said it it me about bobby and britt did too... and i love bobby just as much or more than you do adam...
and please dont try to say i yelled at you at guard... because if thats your definition of yelling, then i hate to see what you describe how i yell at my family... even krystal said that i didnt yell... i did exactly what you said you wanted me to do... you said you think its like this... so i said no, i know its like this... i didnt yell or scream... i specifically watched the way i said it because i didnt want you to think i was mad or something... so maybe you need to relook at that part...
as for the routine thing, i didnt realize that i take all the credit... im sorry for that... ill take it into consideration from now on when talking about that stuff... i honestly didnt realize i was doing it... and its not like i did it on purpose... im not a terrible person like that...
as for the changing part... its part of growing up... i cant be expected to stay the same all my life... as for the drugs and drinking, you did them too! its not like im a druggie... i only smoke pot... you said i "do drugs" and when people see that they think more than just pot... and if you havent noticed, i havent done that in a while either... please know what youre talking about before saying things like this...
if you could know half of the conversations i have with bobby, you would not have said that last few sentences... every other conversation (save one) that ive had with bobby have been ABOUT HIM... do you want to see them? i have most saved... they are all about him wanting to kill himself and me trying to comfort him and talk to him out it... i dont know what else to say about that because that last statement is comepltley absurd... the one time that i tried to talk to him about a problem i had, and he still tried to turn it around so it was about him... if you ask me THAT is selfish, not me asking him to listen to me for once in his life...
before you go making assumptions like the ones you made, please know the whole story, or at least enough of it to make sense... because from this angle you make no sense... and im not just saying that in defense of me, because as you see, i admitted when i was wrong and ill change that now... but please know what youre talking about first...
ASS U ming makes an ASS out of U not me
*terri*
first off, what does this post have anything to do about you comeing to me with stuff... i didnt spill any secrets you told me... i never have and never will... thats just not right...
and also, please remember i was not pissed that you wore bobbys hoodie... i was sad and jealous that you two went to the movies and were getting really close but i told you i wasnt mad and i wouldnt have done anything about it... it was more of an enternal conflict with me, not really concering you... im not a mean person and im not going to be mad at someone cuz shes talking with my ex b/f... thats just dumb... chose your words wisley...
i would like to know how exactly do i act childish? im the most mature one out of all of the people i know... im absolutley not immature or childish or anything of the sort...
the "one day" that you were ranting in your journal wasnt exactly one day... its been like the past few entries in your journal... and the comments you leave on peoples... and also, "im going to make it easy on people and tell them to chose her" yeah that doesnt have guilt trip written all over it
i was with bobby a year and a half ago yes... key word being WITH!!!! you were never WITH roi and youre making a big deal out of this because you liked him... you never went out with him... he barley even liked you... that in itself is very childish... i can understand if you were with him for a while, acting like this, but you never were! you and him hung out, what, 3 times?
as for the whole being immature about bobby... uh i think not... if youve paid any attenion to anything ive said or done latley, you would have noticed that ive accepted the fact that he and i are just friends... i know that and have known that from the time we stopped being friends with benefits... thats the only reason i continued to talk about him, he gave me reason to... when the guy your in love with still kisses you and stuff, but says he has a girlfriend, i think thats grounds for him being a topic of descussion... sorry if my problems arent as important as yours...
again, how did i break your trust? i havent said anything i shouldnt have... these were my thoughts about you... not things you have told me or anything like that...
as for krystal, we already talked about that... when all this shit first started, we talked about it and fixed everything between us... too bad some other people couldnt have been more mature about it... then maybe we all wouldnt be so mean and mad at each other...
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well i think that about covers it... hopefully all this shit gets dealt with soon enough because im just sick of it all...