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yesterday was really weird for me. probably one of the weirdest days i've had in a while. i was emotionally everywhere yesterday which isn't really all that common for me. and i cried! i don't do that very often, but last night i just had to do it and get it out of my system.
i felt really hurt/confused by that whole situation with her and it was only exacerbated the longer i stayed to talk. of course at that point i was so beyond talking but i wasn't ready to leave because i knew that would probably be the last time i'd ever see her. you know, like, REALLY see her. it was just a really bad situation and the lack of communication made it way worse than it really had to be. but it doesn't really matter anymore because school ends in a week and then i'll more than likely rationalize in my head that nothing really existed between us in the first place.
after my crying streak, i went roller skating with a ton of people. (ava, joy, vicky, dj, kendra, etc.) and it was pretty sweet. we had some middle schoolers talking shit to us, but i didn't really care. i had better shit to worry about (like maintaining my balance) than to think about what 13 year olds thought of me. on that note, i fell about 5 times and the last time i fell, i really fucked up my thigh. i landed on my keys so i have a huge bruise and i'm pretty sure i sprained my wrist. definitely not good. but it was fun and i started getting pretty crazy toward the end. i need a helmet when i skate. that's another lesson i learned.
after, we went to kendra's place and there were a lot of people there. it was cool to spend time with everyone though and to hang out with kendra again. i don't know what happened with us, but it was good to re-connect and i hope we can hang out more often. we went to denny's early this morning but i wasn't all that interested in food. then we came home and i went to bed but i only slept for a few hours. i felt way too awake so i just watched stupid stuff on tv and went to brunch with my ladies. it was pretty hot. and then i went to mcdonalds and ate a ton of food. 2 cheeseburgers, a big mac, fries, coke, and a sundae later, it was time to go home. but alas, i'm still hungry and i have some work to do. yay!
i felt really hurt/confused by that whole situation with her and it was only exacerbated the longer i stayed to talk. of course at that point i was so beyond talking but i wasn't ready to leave because i knew that would probably be the last time i'd ever see her. you know, like, REALLY see her. it was just a really bad situation and the lack of communication made it way worse than it really had to be. but it doesn't really matter anymore because school ends in a week and then i'll more than likely rationalize in my head that nothing really existed between us in the first place.
after my crying streak, i went roller skating with a ton of people. (ava, joy, vicky, dj, kendra, etc.) and it was pretty sweet. we had some middle schoolers talking shit to us, but i didn't really care. i had better shit to worry about (like maintaining my balance) than to think about what 13 year olds thought of me. on that note, i fell about 5 times and the last time i fell, i really fucked up my thigh. i landed on my keys so i have a huge bruise and i'm pretty sure i sprained my wrist. definitely not good. but it was fun and i started getting pretty crazy toward the end. i need a helmet when i skate. that's another lesson i learned.
after, we went to kendra's place and there were a lot of people there. it was cool to spend time with everyone though and to hang out with kendra again. i don't know what happened with us, but it was good to re-connect and i hope we can hang out more often. we went to denny's early this morning but i wasn't all that interested in food. then we came home and i went to bed but i only slept for a few hours. i felt way too awake so i just watched stupid stuff on tv and went to brunch with my ladies. it was pretty hot. and then i went to mcdonalds and ate a ton of food. 2 cheeseburgers, a big mac, fries, coke, and a sundae later, it was time to go home. but alas, i'm still hungry and i have some work to do. yay!