Not the Relaxing Winter Break I Would Want
Important notice to anyone who contacts me on semi-regular basis, or contacts me ever at all really: My email address has changed. I can now be reached at wind @ windyways . net sans the spaces of course.
I'm not entirely happy with the new mail provider, mainly because it seems to take forever to open the actual emails, but I'm running out of time before my ex-bestfriend will just delete my email regardless of my situation. I also got a gmail account to use to transfer the last 3 or 4 years worth of emails. I did consider just making gmail my default email, but I have heard some less than reassuring rumors of their habbit of monitoring one's emails and I'd rather stay away from that.
Tomorrow I need to save rest of my stuff from our server that she locked me out of and then I guess I should start uploading it to my new space. The new space is free, so we'll see if it will actually work out. Since I couldn't find any paid server space that wasn't far too extensive for my needs, and thus unnecessarily expensive, I decided to try to see how a free one would work. I did buy a domain name, which is what the email service came as a package with. Of course, this means I have to figure out how to apply the new domain name to my new web space. I can smell the fun hours of beating my tecnology-retarded head against a wall trying to figure that one out, haha. -_-;;
Emotionally this is all kind of hard. Most of the old emails I had in my to-be-deleted account were from my ex-best friend and they did remind me of how things used to be; of the person who used to be. I so wish it would stop hurting, even if I know it won't for years to come. It might seem like easier way would had been just to have all those emails deleted, but I kind of need to keep them to assure myself that I'm not imagining things or making things up. Most likely I'll never really get to know what happened, but I need to have the actual records to reflect back on when I start questioning my own memory or my own sanity because of all the things that are being said.
Therapy tomorrow! I sure can guess what I'll be talking about~ *sigh*
I'm not entirely happy with the new mail provider, mainly because it seems to take forever to open the actual emails, but I'm running out of time before my ex-bestfriend will just delete my email regardless of my situation. I also got a gmail account to use to transfer the last 3 or 4 years worth of emails. I did consider just making gmail my default email, but I have heard some less than reassuring rumors of their habbit of monitoring one's emails and I'd rather stay away from that.
Tomorrow I need to save rest of my stuff from our server that she locked me out of and then I guess I should start uploading it to my new space. The new space is free, so we'll see if it will actually work out. Since I couldn't find any paid server space that wasn't far too extensive for my needs, and thus unnecessarily expensive, I decided to try to see how a free one would work. I did buy a domain name, which is what the email service came as a package with. Of course, this means I have to figure out how to apply the new domain name to my new web space. I can smell the fun hours of beating my tecnology-retarded head against a wall trying to figure that one out, haha. -_-;;
Emotionally this is all kind of hard. Most of the old emails I had in my to-be-deleted account were from my ex-best friend and they did remind me of how things used to be; of the person who used to be. I so wish it would stop hurting, even if I know it won't for years to come. It might seem like easier way would had been just to have all those emails deleted, but I kind of need to keep them to assure myself that I'm not imagining things or making things up. Most likely I'll never really get to know what happened, but I need to have the actual records to reflect back on when I start questioning my own memory or my own sanity because of all the things that are being said.
Therapy tomorrow! I sure can guess what I'll be talking about~ *sigh*