a long time coming

[codename_tophat]

For one its been a long time since ive left an entry so this is for that purpose... I find myself pretty down lately..i went to a party friday wit ha bunch of freinds..and after awhile i jsut didnt want to be anywhere...so i left without almost telling no one...its good not like they noticed they were drunk but its good..saturday i went to the hooka bar and then to rocky and then party hopped till i found this badas party in league city where everyonei knew was...people i havent seen in awhile..i mean wow..i was with micheal he is awesome..my gay man..haha was hitting ion every hott guy in sight i wish i was that confident but i act itr i mean but im just scared to be rejected since its happened alot lately...so its hard for be to go up to someone im scared she wont think im "hott" enough so...unless agirl shows interest in me...i stay single and lonely :(....heh then micheal was throwing up and drnk of his ass so we went to dennys and ate fries..and then i went home..listeing to between me and serenity off into the rising sun wishing i had someone to hold on these cold nights ahead..

love always and forever

derrick