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Merry Christmas.
To all of you who complain about me being vague, here is the full and complete run-down. I ended things with CeCe, it resembled a breakup more than anything else I've ever experienced with anyone. I am upset about it, a little, but I felt that it absolutely had to be done. She was pretty sure it wasn't going to be me anyways. It's really a sad thing for me, and it was a sad thing going through with it, but I had to. She understands, and mostly agrees.
I really DID have it bad for that girl. She was never ever going to be who I wanted her to be, and I probably would have never been what she wanted me to be. It's probably for the best.
I wish her well, because I honestly can't wish her anything else, but I don't want to see her again. I feel like I've been strung along by this girl, on and off, for YEARS now. It's no great secret that I wasn't all over her for those 4 years, and that at times I could care less about her, but I don't know. It's like I've been Osman'd to a greater scale than she or anyone else ever was.
I'm tore up about it plenty, I am, but it's the only way that makes sense, and it's the best for me, and sometimes you just have to look out for number 1.
Honestly, I've WASTED the past 4 years when it comes to girls. WASTED them. I only go after girls that either A) I have no chance with or B) are no good for me. It turns out that she was both. Still though, I really do wish her the best.
Which isn't to say I'm not mad as all fucking hell. I mean, I don't think I'd be this frank about everything if I weren't. To my credit, I still pulled all of my truly devestating punches. She should know it too, she should know that I REALLY COULD have been mean, and I wasn't. Well, if she doesn't, she might think so after reading this.
I did.
Anyways, christmas was pretty good. It cheered me up a bit, and that's good. I got lots of good stuff from my family, and I gave lots of good stuff to my family.
L3wt:
Video Ipod
TV Stand
5.1 Surround sound system
Clothes
Movies (INCLUDING ROBIN HOOD: PRINCE OF MOTHERFUCKING THIEVES!)
A Mattress cover so my bed will now be comfortable
To all of you who complain about me being vague, here is the full and complete run-down. I ended things with CeCe, it resembled a breakup more than anything else I've ever experienced with anyone. I am upset about it, a little, but I felt that it absolutely had to be done. She was pretty sure it wasn't going to be me anyways. It's really a sad thing for me, and it was a sad thing going through with it, but I had to. She understands, and mostly agrees.
I really DID have it bad for that girl. She was never ever going to be who I wanted her to be, and I probably would have never been what she wanted me to be. It's probably for the best.
I wish her well, because I honestly can't wish her anything else, but I don't want to see her again. I feel like I've been strung along by this girl, on and off, for YEARS now. It's no great secret that I wasn't all over her for those 4 years, and that at times I could care less about her, but I don't know. It's like I've been Osman'd to a greater scale than she or anyone else ever was.
I'm tore up about it plenty, I am, but it's the only way that makes sense, and it's the best for me, and sometimes you just have to look out for number 1.
Honestly, I've WASTED the past 4 years when it comes to girls. WASTED them. I only go after girls that either A) I have no chance with or B) are no good for me. It turns out that she was both. Still though, I really do wish her the best.
Which isn't to say I'm not mad as all fucking hell. I mean, I don't think I'd be this frank about everything if I weren't. To my credit, I still pulled all of my truly devestating punches. She should know it too, she should know that I REALLY COULD have been mean, and I wasn't. Well, if she doesn't, she might think so after reading this.
I did.
Anyways, christmas was pretty good. It cheered me up a bit, and that's good. I got lots of good stuff from my family, and I gave lots of good stuff to my family.
L3wt:
Video Ipod
TV Stand
5.1 Surround sound system
Clothes
Movies (INCLUDING ROBIN HOOD: PRINCE OF MOTHERFUCKING THIEVES!)
A Mattress cover so my bed will now be comfortable