hated for being me
hell week is almost over. i've worked everyday this week...it's gonna be so nice not to have to work too much next week. it's made me kinda irritable and stressed out b/c i've got to clean my house and pay bills and visit with the million and one ppl who decided to come to town this past week. plus having ppl mad at me has not made it any better. i've seemed to upset just about all my friends this week for one reason or another. most of the time i don't even know why. it's really nice to find out that ppl have been talking about you behind your back especially when its about stuff that you can't even control. life's a bitch, get over it, assholes. sorry i can't focus my attention on you all the time b/c i have to support myself and my house. everyone should know that i've never been one to just call someone up and chat either so if ppl are pissed at that then i'm sorry but find some other way to communicate with me. but i try my best to return ppl's calls when they do call me so no one can ever say that i don't do that. it may take a while but i do it eventually. i know i'm not the most exciting person in the books either but don't hold that against me. i cant help that. i'm just an extremely shy person and if that frustrates you then screw you. i cant help the way i was born. at least i say hi to ppl when they come into a room, even if i am shy or mad at them. sorry i've had to grow up and become more responsible lately. and sorry i love my family more than you. and sorry i just want to spend some time by myself on occasion.