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My heart has been broken by the same person who has been breaking it for 6 years.
The funny thing is, you'd think I'd at least be used to it by now, if not completely over it. What is it about this person? What power do they hold over me? Why do I step into the same trap over and over again. The "trap" of course, is set up by myself because I'm a crazy person. I know it's all my fault. Maybe that's why it hurts so badly. I'm hurting myself, I know it, and I continue to do so year after year. Is this some sort of self harm?
It's not their fault. I can't make them love me like I love them. Why is that so hard to accept?
The funny thing is, you'd think I'd at least be used to it by now, if not completely over it. What is it about this person? What power do they hold over me? Why do I step into the same trap over and over again. The "trap" of course, is set up by myself because I'm a crazy person. I know it's all my fault. Maybe that's why it hurts so badly. I'm hurting myself, I know it, and I continue to do so year after year. Is this some sort of self harm?
It's not their fault. I can't make them love me like I love them. Why is that so hard to accept?