i need to put this in writing
so my life pretty much sucks on the boy-meter. Theres this guy. HC, as we will now know him as, is awesome. i really really like him. my head says to stay away and be friends. my heart says something different. He's sweet. He's nice. He's super cool. I dont know if there is anything more. I wonder if he has anything for me. There have been a few times where we've "locked eyes", etc. We flirt. I dont know if it is just the way we are? Is it all for nothing? i dont know what he's thinking about me. People keep telling me to tell him. but i dont want to make it awkward. right? i dont know. Could there be something more? i dont know. theres a lot of things i just dont know. Do i tell him? Do i do anything? do i stay away? Its really hard when he hangs out w/ me and the gang. i overanalyze things. what if this whole thing is one big misunderstanding. wow. that would suck. i really should stop and just go with the flow. one thing thats been bugging me is all these horoscopes. usually i read them for fun. but lately,k theyve been strangly right. one of them is really freaking me out. Its saying "dont let your brain rule over your heart. go ahead and tell this person how you really feel. you'd be surprised to find out that they feel the same way" creepy huh? what do i do? do i tell him? do i just wait? ive kinda been wanting to ask him if im wasting my time. straight up. oh well. ill never have the courage to do something like that. but its been on my mind forever. i dont know what to do anymore. gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
on another note, mr e has been making me VERY angry lately. and he doesnt care. nope. fine. my anger for him mixed with my confusion about boys have been keeping me up at night. wow. dont know what to do.
well tomarrow im off to 12, count em 12, hours of patriots. YEs. actually not. as much as i love it, 12 hours is too much. what were they thinking??? i think they're crazy. ok well i guess have a good week. ill let you know on the updates with people.
L0V3,
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on another note, mr e has been making me VERY angry lately. and he doesnt care. nope. fine. my anger for him mixed with my confusion about boys have been keeping me up at night. wow. dont know what to do.
well tomarrow im off to 12, count em 12, hours of patriots. YEs. actually not. as much as i love it, 12 hours is too much. what were they thinking??? i think they're crazy. ok well i guess have a good week. ill let you know on the updates with people.
L0V3,
§∂®∂h