Why am I so weak?...
I used to know this one person very well..I knew her to be a very strong person. She almost never cried. She was always there to laugh even when things were rough. I used to know myself to never have things get that bad, that there was no solution. I used to know myself to be smarter. I used to know myself to feel. Now... I don't know myself, I do all the time, I haven't smiled in a long time, I never know what to do, I'm stupid, and I don't feel. I'm damaged. What has happened to me? Who am I? Where is the person I used to be? What happened to my heart? Why am I always crying? Why are things so rough? Why doesn't the only person in this world I love with every little bit of emotion in my body feel the same way. What happened to us? I feel like I'm dying without an actually sickness... See, I do have one though. I'm sick to my stomache everyday thinking about what it would be like without him. Will the right thing kill me? I'm the lonliest I've ever been. I feel so many things. My heart hurts, and the only one that can turn this all around has no desire to help me.. I seriously can't take this anymore. I wish I knew what went through his mind. I wish I knew why I wasn't good enough. I feel so empty. What is wrong with me? What do yu do when yu feel this? I feel like nothing anymore, I'm treated wiht no respect, and sometimes I feel like I'm more than how he treats me... maybe not much more, but .. I'm still a person.
Why is it that I am so weak? I can't make the tears go away...Someone please save me. I really feel like I'm going insane. So many thoughts, why can't everything just go away. Why can't life be easier? Doesn't he know he's my everything. No in this house helps the matter either. Everyone is all for themselves. Everytime I'm alone, I just cry... kind of like now. I wish I could express this to my family, but I can't.. No one would understand, and it's so much harder when it's really happening to yu. I need to be loved. I need to be saved.
*Love Suicide*
xo.
I just wanna know if yu need me too...
Why is it that I am so weak? I can't make the tears go away...Someone please save me. I really feel like I'm going insane. So many thoughts, why can't everything just go away. Why can't life be easier? Doesn't he know he's my everything. No in this house helps the matter either. Everyone is all for themselves. Everytime I'm alone, I just cry... kind of like now. I wish I could express this to my family, but I can't.. No one would understand, and it's so much harder when it's really happening to yu. I need to be loved. I need to be saved.
*Love Suicide*
xo.
I just wanna know if yu need me too...