Mixed Signals From Everyone.
WOW!! I haven't written in this thing in like AGES!!! So this is way long overdue! Read it if you have nothing else to do. Even though it's just about this past weekend...I don't feel like catching everyone up on my entire life.
Alright...so this weekend...I don't even know how to describe it. I came home on friday and I got to drive THE TRUCK! I was excited =) I picked up Samantha from school and we went to zacks and talked about like everything. From relationships to school to friends to everything! It was awesome...we just chilled ans chain smoked. good times. and I got to meet the infamous quinten who seems to be a cool kid. Then we just drove around some talking and chillin, had to drop her off and work and went out with L Dubs for a while. Friday night was the Storm, which was AMAZING! Me and L Dubs sat on a couch that's in my garage an djust watched the whole thing go down. Defn a good time. Then due to the crappy weather, we went to BoraBora for a couple hours. Nothing wild, but it was nice to just relax AND I havent smoked hookah in forever. So that was nice.
Saturday, I went out to Lunch with Ashley and then Melissa who I havent seen in ages called me and we went to Belleville to pick up her, her finace, fiance's bro, and cuznt. Came bakc to my house and chilled. And I started to like a certain someone. We ended up hangin out all day and then later that night, I was told by them that they liked me too. And wanted to get to know me and so on. I was excited but then...one of their friends wanted to "talk" to me so they were backing off. I dunno...One minute he's telling me he likes me, the next he's says hes going to back off, and then the day after that he text's me and calls me all day long. I don't know what to think.
Not that it matters...even though I want a relationship, I just don't know if Im ready. My standards on who I date are so much higher now and I just know if I'll ever be able to find anyone that treats me even half as good as she did. And that sucks...to feel like you'll never find anyone better that someone you've already had and lost. I think about it now and so many things could have been different...there's so much I wanted to do and say. And just...everything about it...I dunno. This prolly doesnt make sense to you but I dont really care. It's not even that I thing I did something wrong...there's just so much that I wanted to do and places to go. I was looking forward to summer...forward to her. I don't know...I dont make sense so I'm done with that.
I stayed all day Monday at home too...cuz i could. It was sweet. =)
I'll be home friday...so yeah...
"She's no you....."