Unhealthy Obsessions and avoiding sleep
So, we all have obsessions. I know we do. Am I the only one who gets obsessed with things like...doing the dishes at 1am?? I was thinking about this tonight. I've been home from work and picking up Lys from the hospital since about 6:30. I kept thinking about how I need to clean, and do the dishes, and all kinds of stuff. My life has been completely revolving around other people for quite a while now...and tonight I was finally *just* at home. I sat on my LoveSac and thought about how I should be getting stuff done. The more I thought about it, however, the less I wanted to get anything done. This is a rut I tend to put myself in. It starts getting late enough that I think, "Wow...I've had probably a total of 25 hours of sleep since last Friday...I really should just go to bed." I let myself kinda hang out until I get to the point of "Ok HAVE to go to bed." All of a sudden?? I OMG HAVE to get dishes done! At least one sink full. That can't hurt, right? Well after I'm done with that load...I can put another one in to soak while I read my scriptures...right? Then I might as well hurry and do that set when I finish reading. It's a viscous cycle. I have a whole list of things whirling around in my head that I could get done.
I already know that I have a problem with avoiding sleep. During the week, it's because as soon as I go to sleep...I'll have to wake up and go to work. This makes me want to put off my bedtime as long as possible. I have *so* much going on at any given time...that I just push the night out as long as I can. Weekends? I think it's the same concept. As soon as I go to bed tonight, I have to admit that Friday is over. Then there are only 2 days left until I have to go back to work. It's especially bad this weekend...as work is going to *suck* on Monday.
For now? I think I'll actually sleep. With any luck I'll wake up early enough to get more stuff done before I go to play games tomorrow afternoon. I'm hoping that I'll still have the drive to clean and get stuff done. I just can't take how cluttered and messy my house is at the moment!
I already know that I have a problem with avoiding sleep. During the week, it's because as soon as I go to sleep...I'll have to wake up and go to work. This makes me want to put off my bedtime as long as possible. I have *so* much going on at any given time...that I just push the night out as long as I can. Weekends? I think it's the same concept. As soon as I go to bed tonight, I have to admit that Friday is over. Then there are only 2 days left until I have to go back to work. It's especially bad this weekend...as work is going to *suck* on Monday.
For now? I think I'll actually sleep. With any luck I'll wake up early enough to get more stuff done before I go to play games tomorrow afternoon. I'm hoping that I'll still have the drive to clean and get stuff done. I just can't take how cluttered and messy my house is at the moment!