today
So today my mom decided it be a good idea to clean out my closet which was chalk-full of crap that had been stuffed in there for years. My mom had the fabulous idea of cleaning it all out and fixing it up into a beauty room for me, because it contains a counter and sink with cabinets and shelves ( it used to be a darkroom) plus, she was in search of a baby dress made by my brother and sisters grandmother who passed away recently.
through all the sifting and pulling and stuffing and crushing all i found was Dust, garbage, Dust, mouse shit, and dust.
i threw away everything, except for the baby clothes from all of my siblings and myself, my mom pulled out all the boxes and everything was ruined, eaten away by mice, or covered in mouse piss or shit.
she threw away most of it in tears, only keeping necessary items from our infancy.
i took a break and my mom continued to go through everything, then i herd her yell " CAROL ANNE OH MY LORD"
and then she proceeded to tell me that there was a "HUGE" rat on the floor of my closet, and it must've been there for a long time because it was cemented to the floor.
so now i have a partially cleaned closet, meaning i only have all the shit taken out of it.
its nice being able to open my door all the way and its nice not to see a mountain of stuff, i just hope she does not make me get in there and clean out everything on my hands and knees.
but other then that I've been on edge today. wondering and slightly worrying about this boy. He hasn't talked to me since Sunday, and i can only hope he calls me tonight. i like him a lot. he's very different, very traditional, an intellect, sincere, genuine and above all he makes me feel special and cared about.
i can only hope and pray and try at this point and wish that everything runs its course the way i want it to.
I'm going to market tomorrow with my friends who are good friends with him, so i hope he says yes and tags along.
i feel like im sounding like such a hopeless girl
but its all true.
i just want someone to care about me they way i have cared for others.
through all the sifting and pulling and stuffing and crushing all i found was Dust, garbage, Dust, mouse shit, and dust.
i threw away everything, except for the baby clothes from all of my siblings and myself, my mom pulled out all the boxes and everything was ruined, eaten away by mice, or covered in mouse piss or shit.
she threw away most of it in tears, only keeping necessary items from our infancy.
i took a break and my mom continued to go through everything, then i herd her yell " CAROL ANNE OH MY LORD"
and then she proceeded to tell me that there was a "HUGE" rat on the floor of my closet, and it must've been there for a long time because it was cemented to the floor.
so now i have a partially cleaned closet, meaning i only have all the shit taken out of it.
its nice being able to open my door all the way and its nice not to see a mountain of stuff, i just hope she does not make me get in there and clean out everything on my hands and knees.
but other then that I've been on edge today. wondering and slightly worrying about this boy. He hasn't talked to me since Sunday, and i can only hope he calls me tonight. i like him a lot. he's very different, very traditional, an intellect, sincere, genuine and above all he makes me feel special and cared about.
i can only hope and pray and try at this point and wish that everything runs its course the way i want it to.
I'm going to market tomorrow with my friends who are good friends with him, so i hope he says yes and tags along.
i feel like im sounding like such a hopeless girl
but its all true.
i just want someone to care about me they way i have cared for others.