Paths
It's later than I'd like!
(what I get for watching Star Treks)
Protoplay
Today was good. As friends are all over the place these days, I found myself going to the new Dare to be Digital Protoplay with Lynne :) (we had milkshakes... clearly Stirling *does* have something of value!)
I was quite impressed with most of the games, though it was a distinct level playing field... no clear winner and no real tragedies (from what I saw anyway). Can only be a good thing of course, means it's closer and higher quality. We stole stickers... some of which were fake :O
Still quite irritated by not actually *being* there... but that'll pass eventually..
Great to see friends again! :) Though it felt like there hadn't been a month or so in between - and even then, Neil was somehow still awake.
Games I liked: Plight of the Weedunks, Vege(tate)Me, Planet Panic and Smile. The last one could be really unnerving if given a bigger budget. Plus I liked the character designs of World of Champloo... even if the game was.. err... what?
The train on the way there was *packed*.. more than I had experienced in a long while, 16 people in the door aisles alone! Why? Make it festival time, a Sunday, and flood-enduced cancellations :S
Home
My Dad was back from his Trans-Siberian railway trip on Tuesday, so the entire close family + additions were here to see nearly 2000 photographs! I brought the Wii back and it's Photo Channel was incredibly useful displaying them on the TV. Incredible trip by the looks of it, such surreal places which only intensified as it went on. Berlin>Russia>Mongolia>China. I think my Dad lost the plot when China and Beijing appeared; there was just too much!
As usual home spurs me into insightful thinking and looking inward on myself. I get the impression that I have been willingly chasing my two older sisters, experience-wise. For some reason I've always deliberately compared were I am now with were they are. I think in past years it hasn't been too different, but now I am aware I shouldn't be trying to jump 5 years ahead of myself.
I can't remember were they were at 24... I think they were in the same predicament I am now. So I don't know why I find myself rushing and demanding so much of myself. Perhaps it is because I'm the youngest in an older family, or society in general.
But... still makes me feel younger even when I'm older :P
Also, I've found myself captured by my ancient books I wrote 5-10 years ago. Fantastic, albeit flawed. I miss that... which is why I want to start again. Something akin to those books, action filled, free of restraints... and completely meaningless :P
The frying pan
So tomorrow... or today... I go back to grey Dundee to slog out whatever life will give me! Just have to accept what I have already said and accept the fact my life hasn't gotten to the point like others close to me (Sister Claire's off to Hong Kong indeed! Is reluctant indeed! Bah) ; paths go different ways, but we wind up in the same place in the end.
I'd LOVE to know this reluctance shared by everyone with *actual* jobs! :P
Yes, you can quote me on that.