Cat fight- litterally
Well um, my mom has no hair...she hasn't let me see her baldness yet. Um Lauren won't take rides from me anymore(more like won't ask me) and now everytime she leaves me a messages it's always " I love you and thankyou for always being there for me." Is she trying to guilt me? What the hell did I do? Hell, at least she finally knows I don't like Jeff nor will I ever. Gah, I still have to write my English paper, hell I needed that extra credit oh well I will be back to my usual, over-achieveing self in a matter of days once D III madness is over, for the last time. It makes me sad knowing that I will never again ache and hate that field like I used to. Really, it is a very surreal moment to think that I have almost grown out of marching and tomorrow will be the final step. I have dreamed of this day those times when I hated band. I am really un-biased to the whole situation I don't think that was the right word to describe my certain situation but, I feel removed from it like it isn't my band anymore, like it never was.
I was thinking about Nick, I have no idea why I think about him, cause really I can't stand being around him but I can't stand not thinking about him. Maybe(hopefully) he is such my opposite that really I feel I must debate him like I debate republicans or anit-abortionists. I guess that could be it. I don't get him and although I come up with all these hypothesis and ideas I don't think I will ever understand him truely maybe cause he doesn't understand himself enough yet. Well that's enough of Nick, although I wish he wouldn't invade my personal space because I laughed at his comment about Weight Lifting.
Also this whole thing with Dean is going nowhere. Apparently he has made great strides to get closer to me, but, I can't see it. He never talks to me! It makes me sad, because I really don't want to go through that confusion and hurt period again. Maybe I am ment to be a spinster like Mary Bennet- oh god and she is the ugly one!
I was thinking about Nick, I have no idea why I think about him, cause really I can't stand being around him but I can't stand not thinking about him. Maybe(hopefully) he is such my opposite that really I feel I must debate him like I debate republicans or anit-abortionists. I guess that could be it. I don't get him and although I come up with all these hypothesis and ideas I don't think I will ever understand him truely maybe cause he doesn't understand himself enough yet. Well that's enough of Nick, although I wish he wouldn't invade my personal space because I laughed at his comment about Weight Lifting.
Also this whole thing with Dean is going nowhere. Apparently he has made great strides to get closer to me, but, I can't see it. He never talks to me! It makes me sad, because I really don't want to go through that confusion and hurt period again. Maybe I am ment to be a spinster like Mary Bennet- oh god and she is the ugly one!