TWO DAYS!!!
ATF TWO DAYS! YES! We're going to two hotels so that way we can swim since the second one has a pool. ROCK ON! I finally got a swim suit lol. I went to youth today. The service was awesome. I have been going through some things. Personal issues with my self I guess. The service started off with kristen talking about peer pressure and how she had given in to peer pressure in the past and how she's trying to start over it didn't really say much to me cause she was nervous and stumbling over her words and I don't think she knew exactly how to word her feelings. Then Brian spoke up and he was such an excellent speaker. He really hit home. He talked about how we sort of base our values on what the world says and not what god says, and that that happens and we all make mistakes but we're all given second chances. I know I have made many mistakes in the past and I'm trying to get past that and better my self as a person. It's hard because as much as i try to be a better person it's just so frustrating because others can't see that. They judge me by what I have done in the past. He also speaked about how christians condemn others when really we should love everyone no matter what. Which is so true. I immediatly looked over at Aaron Poole when he said that. I mean it's good to try and help others better them selves but to just push them aside and lable them as a bad person isn't right. That's been happening to me alot lately mostly by parents, other peoples parents and even my own, and by some people in the church. But God doesn't condemn. You can only be condemned by your self and other people. God loves you no matter what, and we should all try and be like that. I spoke about this with my grandma just now and I'm really happy for once. I finally feel at peace with her and that she knows she can trust me and that I am trying to change and that I really haven't done anything too outrageous or dangerous to begin with. I think our talk just sort of assured her she has been raising me right and that made her happy which made me happy. I'm also glad she knows I am actually getting something out of going to church. Cassie also spoke and I was soo proud of her. She hit home in a more humorous way but it was good to hear her say the things she said. Especially coming from her. I felt so happy for her, that she had come to such a mature realization. I feel bad though because she's scared of having no one to hang with at ATF so i really hope we room together cause i want her to know i love her and I am there for her and i think she's awesome and I just can't get over how proud I am of her. GO CASSIE!!! lol ok well I think that is it. I'll proly update again after ATF. I'm lookin forward to all the wild and crazy good times and spiritual experiences. I love you all!!! Ash