ah just talkin bout a guy
I see sean everywhere...okay not everywhere...but since i have to go to my locker which is all the way across the school..i see him walk by....when i get to the car loop i try to get out as fast as possible so that i can see him walk home...which works half the time...don't see him that much but when i can i will...i miss him a lot...yeah i only talked to him...didn't go out with him but it still hurts...whatever...he has NO FREAKIN IDEA!!!! if he did...yeah he still wouldn't talk to me but at least he would know that it's killing me...emotionaly...i should sue him for emotional damage...god dammit...
i've noticed some things bout sunshine over there...he walks different now...and since his hair isn't in his face he doesn't do that thing where he hangs his head down and sorta moves it....uhhhhh...I'M NOT SPYING I SWEAR! ....wasn't me....didn't do it...
yeah talking to adults doesn't help...and yes i tell them things...just for advice...i have no one else to talk to so whatever...yeah they say "oh do something to take yer mind off of it"...um...what the fuck? we know that shit doesn't work...
i could be fucking a dog and still think about him so COME ON!!! there is no solution
unless i lock him in a portable...hey bet he would talk to me then..."LET ME OUT LET ME OUT" not a bad idea...
Can't live on imagination forever but they say "oh once you go out with someone you'll know it's not worth fussing over" yeah well i can't help it okay...i'd at least like to know what going out with one is like, then i can say how bad it sucks..