Please Don't SUFFOCAATE Behind Those Hazel Eyes. .
So welll things are to say the least. .slightly twisted
I regret to admit. .
First week of my program is now completely over I believe that I CAN DO IT AND ANYONE WHO SAYS THAT I CAN'T ARE UNDERESTIMATING MY DETERMINATION that it went probably as smoothly as it could jugglin issues my job and of course doin the actual work I handled it pretti welll but as of right now I can not really describe how I feel so this is going to be such a fucked entry HAHAHAHA. .Then again most of em are but tis alll good I have spent time reflectin upon recent events but I have not dwelled upon them which for me is somewhat of a fucking MIRACLE yessum so thats AWESOME. .But I have been chattin to various ppl who I do not really confide in all too often possible because of busy schedules or just cos they don't like talkin to me which I am fine with I really frankly couldn't give a fuck. .there are soo many both true and false rumors going around about welll EVERYBODY. .WHO CARES??? LIVE . YOUR . GODDAMMNED . LIFE . AND . IGNORE . THEM . ALLL. .MOVE ON This is actually not directed at anyone in particular just it now makes so much MORE sense in my head I'll tell ya right now there are currently 3 ppl in my life who should another "episode" took place would be by my side NO MATTER WHAT and that is alll that matters to me and even if noone showed up oh welll too dammn bad
>>The point of this exercise is to divert my attention from doing homework. .and it is workin!! HAHAHA I am such a goof I luuurve it<<
So continuing on and in dedication to NICOLE WHO I MISS SO FRIGGIN MUCH IT IS NOT EVEN FUNNI (Sorri babe but I think we alll need you) however I deeply respect her for deciding what she wanted to do and actually doing it that to me is fantastic or *FABULOUS!!* . ."In with the gummi bears out with the broccoli" and hey if your strange as I am if you actually imagine that it even becomes FUNNI so that there is a plus hehee do I sound like a student yet. .educated??. .Absolutely NOT haha I was a bit of a bad student this week I hafta admit. .I did not do two assignments and skipped one class but fucck you all it was my loss and I will pay for it infact I already did so I am not infact stressed just overwhelmed a lil?? . .I dunno Yesterday GRRRRRRRRRR Fuck I got so frustrated with myself. .it quite literally FUCKED ME We were talkin about self esteem today. .yeaa such a GREAT topic eh?? I STILL have to work on BEING ON TIME I couldn't be punctual if my life depended on it okay I was LATE LATE LATE LATE for my fuckin PLANE TO COME HERE!! but I mean that is only because my rents did not want me on their plane only kiddin I don't actually know whyy. .It is just terrible I NEED SOME LOVIN!! *grimaces*. .had some pangs of nOSTALGIA earlier this week probably this whole goin back to school thang not quite into it yet so we shall see I mean I was not BAD so to speak just I really wanted to discipline myself to NOT SCREW UP. .And even though some ppl are gettin so mad at me for not callin or spendin any time with them it is cos I truly do NOT have any time but as of right now I am F R E E and it is wonderful I really despise being so occupied cos ppl need me to talk to them so in a way it sucks and in another way it doesn;t cos the less time I spend with ppl the less I will fuck everythin up so tis good in that respect wow really thought this was gonna be some poetic lil number guess not eh?? haha there are some fuckin wiicked songs out there right now alll mushed in my head so I can not think of any right now so back to the whole being F R E E thing that is really important for one very special lady by the name of . .
!!The LINDSENATORRRRR!!!! Sounds pretti intense and intimidatin eh?? YOU AINT HEARD SHIT YET!!! hahaha. .am takin her out to get her absolutely trashed BIRTHDAY FIASCO!! Tis gonna be a BLAST. .remember remember remember??!!?? Ohh the times. .gettin LOAAAADDDEDDDD hunni kapiche?? du du du du doo doo doo du du du doo. ."It aint no funn it the homies can't geeeettt none!!" "Are ya tellin me the schame SIIGN??" Ohh how I loathe Timberlake and The FUCKING OC?? What the fuck IS that shit?? My sister as much as I love her to pieces is sadly OBSESSED WITH IT. . .SCAVENGER HUNT!!
Other aspects have not been resolved then again some things we have NO control over and we just have to accept that that is just the way things are that right there is probably my hardest barrier to break but livin here with this society has helped me understand not only how but TO let shit GO And I am happi with that fuck this is so pointless but if I did not empty my head out here it woulda probably come out n my homework or on someone elses shoulder!! so if ya don't like it LICK MY LEFT PINKI
Muffins are delicious
Had ppl ask me whyy I changed my email address?? Welll I am gettin sick of havin to switch to fire to check it soo I created an additional one also I consider it to a be more . .professional addy . .
I turn 20 in . .I dunno a few weeks?? Soonish is alll that I know the objective is that I want EVERYBODY AND YOUR DAUGHTERS SPOUSE (YES THAT CAN HAPPEN. .Was watchin Maury my rainbow for the day just cos I had a rough day so I KNOW for surre that that daughter musta been goin through a helll worse than mine haha) TO BE THERE WHEREEVER I END UP REALLY COULD DO WITH GETTIN SOME THAT WOULD JUST BE AWESOME TOO But yea for me to get soo wasted that if soemone shows up that I hate I won't care hahahahahahahahaa.. my demented cousins idea not mine haha but yea seriously everyone MUST BE THERE cos last years SUCKED and it it wasn't for my Pimp Dadi it woulda really blowed soo yeaa. . .
*BACK TO THE MAIN EVEN IN QUESTION!!* orr EVENT in question . .
even arrrgghh so many evens with so many evens how can I be so odd?? HAHAHAA LAUGH FOR FUCCKS SAKES!! LIFE IS BETTER THAT WAY!! HAHA
Which btw is not my mind explodin haha. .everybody must come out for Lindseys b'day too because she fuckin deserves it even if ya don't know her come out anyways!! cos I mean she only gets pissed if you get jealous of her PURPLE hair!! No kidin hunni it ROCKS .. WE STILL HAFTA GO FOR MORE ICECREAM AND ACTUALLY FINISH IT!!! hahhaa oooh!! we were at BP's. .ummm do not remember what nite now dammn but Amy served us!! and she was so awesome. .You are an inspiration to us alll babe seriously she is DECORATIN MY CAKE!!!!!!!! hehehe. .riight??
So right now just umm observe me attempt to juggle sch work hw studying friends and a possible boyfriend??? Not wise is it?? I know I read that and just all these sirens and .#RED FLASHING LIGHTS#. went off hahahaha
I trigger my own laughter
I am so randomly ravishing
I face my courses with optimism as it will reinforce the importance for me to become a better person
\\Your Pain Is Burnin Through My Veins//
"Is this more than you bargained for yet??"
"In your eyes I lost my place can't stay a while + I'm m elt in g"
WAIT!! The scar on my stomach has GONE!! *YAYA* Thats it those are alll my current announcements ohh that and I HATE KEYBOARDIN GRAAGGGHHH WITH THE SAME HATRED I HAVE FOR BANANAS OH YES IT IS THAT INTENSE Holy fuck its gonna kill me other than that things are OK lots of shit to figure out and work with but isn't that like every day??
Uh huh
You love ma lady lumps
Annd I really do not have anythin poetic or lyrical today!! Weirdddd
As yummi as icecream meltin on a hott day
Gotsta get my homework done. .
Mehhblaah
>>Happi Birthday To The LINDSENATORRRRR!!xox<<