the sickness
today was beyond unberable. i felt like killing everybody. cypress bay is what i would like to call hell. the 1st word that comes to mind when i think of that fucking skool is fake. ive never been around so many empty minded people who only care about impressing each other. utterly sickening. i could just throw up. i was up til 3:30 am last night doing fucking homework. every night i have at least 3 hours worth of it. jamie feels my pain. western is where we need to be. where people act real... not false. i cant stand being around people like this. i was enjoying living down here until i started going to cypress. my dad is a fucking prick and could care less about my happiness. he just wants me to do good in skool. i have all a's right now, but im miserable. if i went to western i would get straight a's and enjoy myself while doing it. i guess i just need to suck it up and tough it out cuz i really have no other choice. i hate bitching and complaining, but hey, theres nothin else i can do about it. maybe next year ill be able to go to western... i can only hope. i dont think i can take much more of this shit. im really thinking about going back home. i miss it so much. my dad wouldnt let me, but then again he couldnt stop me. if i get a hold of a ticket there aint shit he can do. its amazing how i went from so much to nothing. i have jamie. and thats it. sad but true. it wouldnt make a fucking difference if i left. not one bit.